remember me?

So basically last year me and my by that point ex finally broke contact. She got in touch after a while saying she couldnt bare it and wanted to sort things out. That was about last July. We never got fully back together, it just carried on as it was. I explained to her about what I'd like done differently between us,as she did to me, about what she wanted. We want the same things. But it never seemed to get anywhere. I told her around late February this year that I wanted her. Her mum suggested I take her on holiday... I didn't get this as her daughter displayed all the signs of wanting a relationship with me. Said all the right things, but never followed it up.my feeling was she should know without any holiday or prompting wether she wanted me ornot. Afterall it was she who said she wanted to sort it out. (You'll have to maybe look through my previous posts to get a back story) I told her that I couldn't just keep seeing her with no commitment. That it was all or nothing. That if I didn't fully make her happy then she need to leave me alone because I was wanting what she said she did. But I wasn't getting it. (Sounds very abrubt and rude on re reading) we were both saying I love you, I was staying over (although not always with relations between us. I just enjoyed holding her) we were being a couple without being official. Genuinely its been really hard. Im still thinking of her every night, all day and in the morning when I wake. She genuinely was one person I could have woken up to every day. A true friend in as much as a lover. Such a wonderful personality. We did have our arguments. But I always saw beyond that. God I miss her. Even just her smell used to make me tingle.

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