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why do guys ask girls for their number and then not text them for ages, if ever?!

This guy was chatting to me on linkedin and asked me if i had whatsapp. I didnt know what it was. Was he asking for my phone no?

my reply was: 'Unfortunately, I do not have whatsapp, would you recommend it? I do have a blackberry.' I sent this on wednesday this week.

Since then, he has not messaged me back.

I sent him another quick message saying: 'I have now downloaded whatsapp and my number is xxxxxx. send me a message!' I sent this yesterday on thursday and still no reply.

any ideas why I have not heard from him yet? and you think i could still expect to hear from him or should I forget about him?

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Dating!!! What's realistic???

Usually I date women who are much younger than myself, sort of 12 years. Often I'm told I look 23!!! But I'm 30... Its okay but most of time it's just one night stands in clubs and I want more, what do you think is realistic and what age do think women meet my list below???? I have a 5 year old son in private school, I'm quite attractive and I am quite well off... Just to give more background

1 - young and attractive
2 - likes children
3 - traditional, but enjoys nightlife
4 - intelligent, but spontaneous
5 - affectionate, but honest and committed!!





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Is Abrahamic religion false?

Take Christianity and Islam. Isn't it true that some middle Eastern peoples in the ancient era created these religions as a need to control humanity?

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Seeking dates on social networking sites

I find online dating is false, but then to me social networking sites like Facebook and Twitter are better, even though their express purpose is not for dating. At the least, I think it makes for a more honest connection, since you have to tailor your approach to not come across as a creep.

Are these avenues common? I have made a few friends from this method, but nobody to date...yet.

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Signs you didn't see then but make sense now!

I was reading some stories in the Infidelity section, and I wondered this, has anyone found out their spouse was cheating, but you found out years later and it had been going on for quite awhile, and you never even knew it was going on at the time? If so, what were the signs you didn't see then for so long, but now looking back, you saw it all along but just didn't really realize it at the time?

BTW, I posted this in the general discussion forum the other day and got 2 responses out of 267 views, thought maybe it fit better here, thanks!

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Why won't he help me?? I feel like I'm in a marriage by myself.

My husband and I are 29, have been married for almost 4 years and have been together for nearly a decade (living together for 8 years). We do not have children yet. We both have full time jobs outside of the home. I work 8 ten hour over night shifts in a row at a local hospital and then have 6 nights off. I also have multiple sclerosis and struggle with the extreme fatigue that goes along with this darn disease. I worked full time all through college and grad school. Changing schedules isn't an option at this time as we need the shift differential it provides (extra $5 an hour) to pay off our credit card debt this year. My husband works a standard 9-5 job Monday through Friday and dropped out of college, refusing to go back even though I have tried and tried to encourage him to finish his degree.

When I get home from work in the morning, I try to do some dishes and laundry and some quick tidying up and then go to bed to get ready for my next shift. I spend most of my off weekend time sleeping to recover from the work week & MS fatigue, cleaning the house and doing laundry and running errands. My husband, however, sits on his butt every night after work playing an online computer game (World of Warcraft) and does the same thing on the weekends. He doesn't do any kind of chores unless I ask/tell him to and then he complains about it the entire time.

This past weekend we went away on a romantic weekend for my birthday. Please note that I made the arrangements for the weekend and paid for it. Unfortunately, I was completely exhausted and needed a 4 hour nap each day on Friday, Saturday and Sunday because I didn't sleep well during the night, and he got angry about it. I apologized over and over again for ruining our weekend, I felt terrible about it.

Tonight he intentionally played his stupid video game during the precious hour we have to spend together in the evening before I go to work at night. Before he bought the computer for the game we agreed that he wouldn't play it while I was home. He did this to get back at me for falling asleep last weekend (he admitted he did it intentionally). My husband doesn't understand how utterly exhausted I am. He doesn't understand how hard it is to make my body be awake during the day when I'm used to sleeping at that time.

It is a slap in the face to realize that I have absolutely no support from him. I feel alone. He complains about the fact that I'm so tired all the time, but hasn't done anything to improve his work position (he makes half as much money as I do...if we could afford for me to reduce my hours, I would!!), nor has he made any effort to curb his spending so that we could afford for me to change shifts.

I don't know what to do, I'm at my wit's end. I love him very much, but I'm so angry with him and fed up with everything. It seems like we have the same talk every month, I ask him to help with the chores around the house and he does NOTHING (he doesn't even do the outdoor "man" tasks)and now he has the audacity to hold something that I have no control over (chronic fatigue) over my head.
I would appreciate any advice you all might have.

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New member, tough days, good to talk!

Hi there,

I am just separated, very raw and ugly right now. My ex has our daughter who I am hoping to get back today but as he is calling the shots right now he has told me he will call my Mum to discuss and hasn't. He text mid morning to say he would be calling soon but no phone call :(

I am going out of my mind, I can kind of cope with the separation idea but I am missing my daughter beyond compare. I have 2 step children also my relationship with them is poor and mostly the reason why we argue and had out final argument yesterday.

Additional challenges are that we own businesses together so that is something that needs to be addressed but for now I just want my little girl with me at my Mums .....

Any tips on how to reason with a very strong willed mind x

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Husband wants legal separation after 16yrs of marriage

I cannot believe myself posting this, but I am desperate for some advises and maybe some exchange ideas of how to cope with my situation.
We are married for 16 years now, four years ago, out of carelessness or on purpose I discover his secret affair with a much younger women than me. He opened his email in my laptop and forget to log off before we go for a summer vacation, when I came back to my office the first thing that flashes the screen was his email to his mistress saying the sweetest message you can ever imagine. At first I thought it was for me but then realization strikes me that it was not. I confronted him about it immediately and he tried to denied it but then I slap him with the printed email, he said sorry it was a mistake on his side, he said it was just some unexpected things and he will correct it and break up with her....from then on I never trusted him and always have this feeling of jealousy and possessiveness. Our relationship became like a roller coster ride, I came to know that the break up was just a fake and she is still around and continuing the relationship because after 3 year she be came pregnant, I confronted him again about it and he denied that it was his child, but then again some of our common friends sent me a picture of them together.
I love my husband so much that I can forgive him with all these as long as he is with me and he is coming home every night with me, I thought that was enough, I just don't want our family to break. We have a son by the way. He is a well respected businessman, a wealthy one, that is why every woman wants a piece of him, he is always generous. I know I cannot change him nor control him, so I accepted and forgive him again, we still fight sometimes because I became obsessed on him to the extent that I'm calling him many times everyday, trying to know where he is , what time he is coming home. That I guess pissed him but still so patient about me, recently,like 3 months ago by mistake again or he said he did it on purpose to divert my attention from being jealous about his new family, he send me an email that he's suppose to send to a new girl, ( another one ) saying the same sweet message he uses to the previous one, ( he is very good in writing sweet emails that will make you melt ) I confronted him and he said it does not exist, he just made it up to divert my attention, I didn't believed him and I opened his iPad and found out about this new affair which is blooming to the fullest to the extent that the woman is asking him to separate with me.
Last December he went for a business trip (he said) and for the first time did not spend Christmas with us, he was out for 10 days without calling or even not answering my calls which is very unlikely for him to do so. When he return he have of course valid explanations for that, I kept quite and observed him, after a week he went again for another 15 days with the same attitude, then when he comes back I cornered him and he said he cannot continue with me he wants out, he wants separation, I was shocked it was all so sudden to me I didn't know what to say, I felt like the whole room was swirling, like there is this hot blood going up and down my body, I don't know..he said we can settle amicably and can still be friends, I have to be civil because I do not want to fight.
But I love him so much I start begging him to try to work it out again, I'm playing it cool but deep inside me I cannot accept that this is really happening, I don't know what to do, where to start, knowing he's not mine anymore is killing me. I know this is inevitable and that scaring me so much. We never been separated all these years and thinking of living without him next to me......I don't know how to cope.. To anyone with the same situation or gone through the same, please advise me how to start...what is the first move.

Waiting for some advise.
Bimbam

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Looking for a new career...

I'm looking for discussion and ideas. And, I'm going to put some vital information in this as to "why" and some limitations.

First off, let me explain how I got here and needing to decide on something new to do. Several years ago, my wife decided to get from her AS degree in nursing to BS. Further, for many years, she had been investigating pursuing becoming an MD, but that was a lot of money, we had 5 kids and lots of bills, and for the last 20 years, she's made more money than I do. We'd have never made it on what I can earn.

What's now about 14 years ago, I decided to leave my job and go back to school to get an associates degree in an IT field. By the time the first year went by, it became painfully apparent that having a 2 year degree was worthless in terms of getting a job. My job paid pretty well, but was a toxic environment, in terms of health. I now suffer a number of medical issues that are probably related to not leaving sooner. But, the past is the past. Still, I did my two years of college, but instead of the degree, I got as much technical education as I could and skipped the art, history, etc, classes in favor of stuff I could learn from that interested me.

Two years later, I finally got into business for myself and pursued that until last year. At that point, my wife had been injured in an on the job accident and we spent two years fighting with insurance. Our kids were all adults, could live on their own, and she wanted to change careers to one far less physical. So, we agreed to the move. I left my business behind, leased it out to someone else, and we moved to the Chicago area.

Somewhere in 3 to 5 years from now (there are future options that may extend her academic plan ) we're going to be done, and we're leaving the midwest and moving back west. We both hate the city, living in the city, the city environment, the city culture, living in the flatlands and crowds... So, we agree on one thing, we're leaving here as soon as it is practical to do so.

I don't have a degree (though quite a bit of knowledge and experience) in any IT field, and I can't get a job here ( though I've tried) in any position even related. By the time we're done here, I will be so far out of date and so long removed, that it would mean starting over and getting a degree. Not doing that. I'm 50 now.

To compound the issue, I have something called DISH (Diffuse Idiopathic Skeletal Hyperostosis). If this is a disease, there's no cure. It might be more accurately called a syndrome. Regardless, what it is doing is slowly fusing my spine (and possibly other areas of my body in the future) into solid bone. Extreme cases result in spines that don't bend, fused rib cages, even feet or major joints. It turns some soft tissue into bone as well, causing something like arthritis in odd places.

I have changed my diet, and getting some re-mobilizing for those areas of my spine that don't want to move (and I might regain some movement in) now, and the key to holding off the inevitable is to be as active as possible, without having to strain or injure things, which causes pain and inflammation, which then is a cycle that's hard to break. Certain things are very detrimental - bending the wrong way, lifting badly, bad ergonomics, etc.

I'm in a quandary... I don't know what to do. I need to be able to do something that's needed anywhere we go - and we plan on moving somewhere in the western US, likely a rural or semi-rural area. Sedentary work will probably speed up the progress of my issues, and physical work can result in disabling pain that lasts for days. So, sitting at a desk is just not an option. Nor is being a mechanic again ( I was for 13 years and could be again, but the lifting, bending and so on is just not possible).

I was looking at truck driving, but it has the same issues as being at a desk. Though I'm strong and can do some serious physical labor still (as long as I don't do a few certain things), that's not going to last very long. I don't know how fast this will progress, nor how long I can hold off becoming less than fully functional. Even now I'm not wholly functional, in that pain does, at times interfere with normal activities.

I've been working as a courier, but that's a non-starter outside of the big metro areas. Besides, the long hours of driving and little activity are not the best idea.

I've come up with becoming a locksmith, which mostly fits, except that many of the areas we would like to move to, have very little work. Nor does it ever pay well.

I could become an HVAC tech, but often that requires crawling under houses or in attics and/or heavy lifting, bending, crouching... And I won't be able to do that in the future. How far in the future I don't know. I'm somewhat limited now, and there's no known way of reversing any of this limitation. Appliance repair has the same issues.

I'd love to see people's ideas on this. Perhaps stuff I've never thought about or are on my radar screen. I'm mechanically minded, a real technology geek and learn whatever I need to fast and do whatever I do well. I'm not ruling anything in or out, but I just haven't lit on anything that fits my abilities profile in the foreseeable future.

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More than two years in R

I finally convinced myself to stop reading the avalanche of threads that this section of TAM always seems to attract long enough to give the community an update.

I'm not sure why this update felt harder to do than the one from last year, but I did give it some major thought. If I had to draw a conclusion, I would say that there is no adequate way to fully encompass with words the incredible, transformative, and immensely satisfying changes that have occurred in our marriage as a result of our willful and committed work on our relationship.

We have both grown as individuals, actively supporting each other through the process. Our communication skills continue to improve as we learn to frame and re-frame various ideas without making each other feel defensive or hurt. At times the communication is so good that we both think there is nothing left to improve, and then, seemingly out of nowhere, we will find yet another construct/script running through one mind or the other that can be dismantled, examined, and re-framed to more closely suit our needs at that time.

One of the most difficult things we often discuss is making sure we dont sit on our laurels expecting a medal or award for getting through a self inflicted injury and becoming complacent. Making sure old habits and patterns do not re-emerge, and holding each other to a high standard as well as accountable when we mess up or come up short of the mark.

There have been no breaches of any of our boundaries and no attempts by the POSOM to fish. The concepts that must be accepted early on in the process as "necessary components to reconciliation" such as NC and full transparency have simply become the normal operating procedures for our lives together. They do not feel foreign in any way, and seem as if they have always been there.

Paladin's Pride has been making major strides in her efforts to improve her mental health. With every passing month I see her actively pursuing tangible improvements. This time last year, her bad days would be 2-4 per week. Now it is 1-2 per month, and the severity and length of those episodes (mostly major depression and anxiety breakthroughs, typically co-occur with stress) is greatly reduced. If she wakes up on a low day, usually by the afternoon she is much better.

Physical intimacy has been great. Quite a few all nighters echoing the hysterical bonding nights we used to have early in the R. I dont have any intrusive thoughts, and honestly cant remember the last time I triggered. Some of you know that she posts on this forum, although very infrequently, but the language she uses in her posts when she reflects on the A is the same as she uses with me on almost a daily basis. Even though I have not needed to hear her say that she knows there is no timeline on this, and that she will always be committed to R, in well over a year, she still makes it a point to say it to me whenever anything even remotely relevant comes up in conversation. She struggles forgiving herself at times, but has made improvements in that area as well, knowing that being able to forgive herself at some point in time and move on to live a happy life with me is a requirement of R seems to motivate her to do that.

The saying "If you love what you do, you never work a day in your life." Is a perfect fit for R. The end results are so incredibly fulfilling that the work that goes into making it happen, never feels like a chore.

Thank you all for the kind words of support, they always mean a great deal to both of us. As things stand now, the updates for three years and onward will not be posted here, but instead will hopefully be posted in one of the other sections like 'Long Term Success' or 'Mental Health and M'

Feel free to ask any questions, I will try to answer everyone that asks.

-Paladin

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Is he doing anything wrong? Am I?

My hubby and I have been married for 30 years. Before he met me he had been engaged to another girl, they broke up, 2 years later he met me, we started off just friends, after about 18 months we started to hold hands, kiss sometimes. We slowly grew to love each other. I knew about the previous relationship but I always thought it was completely finished before he met me. I thought we were mostly happy in our relationship. Now, just a few days after our 30th wedding anniversary he started acting weird. He has never been a lovey-dovey kind of man. Not affectionate unless he wants sex. He isn't interested in being friends, doesn't talk much, comes home from work, plays a game with our youngest child for maybe half an hour, then goes on the computer and stays there until bed time. Suddenly he's affectionate, telling me all that time that he loves me, I'm special to him, he'd be lost without me, complimenting me, praising my cooking - he's never done any of th at before. I made jokes about him having an affair and he didn't say anything. He leaves his computer on all the time so after a few weeks of this odd behaviour I looked at what was on the screen. I found out that he had been looking for his first love for nearly 2 years. And he found her. And she's very willing to have a relationship with him again. She's married, has grown children. He's married, has grown children and a 7 year old. They don't bother to hide their relationship. The computer is in the main living area of the house, and it's still on all the time. They speak of their love for each other, how they'll never be apart again. They call and text each other a lot too. Every day. So far it's only a phone and internet relationship, on Face Book, but I feel betrayed. When I told him I knew what he was doing he got really angry, told me I shouldn't have looked at his computer, broke some furniture, blamed me for ruining a good thing. I told him I won't be anyone's sec ond choice. He told me that if people hadn't interfered when they broke up years ago he would never have married me. He says he doesn't see what the problem is because he's willing to stay here and support us. But all that does is give him 2 wives. I do all the normal wife stuff and she provides the fun and entertainment. I want to leave him but I can't yet, have to sell the house, but while we're waiting I said I wanted an in-house separation. We agreed on rules. Separate bed-rooms, no physical touching of any kind, I cook, clean, run the house and do the books as usual, he brings in the money. My problem is he wont stick to the rules. He is in my personal space all the time, touching, stroking, hugging, kissing, wanting to hold my hand. I can't even use the toilet without him waiting for me to get out so he can hug etc. I don't hug him back, I refuse to hold his hand, I move away from him as much as possible. If we drive anywhere together he has his hand on my thigh the w hole time. If I remove it he does this whole hurt act, like I'm the one doing the wrong thing. It's driving me crazy!! I feel suffocated. He comes into my room at night and wants to get into bed with me. I tell him no. So he sits beside my bed because he wants to be with me. And it's always in the middle of the night, so he's disturbing my sleep almost every night. He refuses to give up the other woman, they're going to spend a week together next month. He wants to keep both of us. He tells me she's a really nice, caring person. Neither of them want to hurt anyone. Am I being unreasonable? Is an internet relationship the same as an affair? He complains a lot that he's confused. I don't agree, I think he just wants to have it all his own way. Our adult kids are disgusted with his behaviour and generally avoid him. Our little one is confused because Daddy wont play games with her any more, he's too busy on the computer. I can't stop checking his Face Book account now to see wh at they're up to. He knows I do it and he doesn't care. I feel really hurt but I would consider staying together if I knew he had given her up, but I don't see how I can trust him anymore.

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my secret crush

i need help A.S.A.P with this problem.. There's this girl in my year which i really fancy but no one knows about it except me but I want her to go out with me. What should I do?:$ I'll really appreciate yur help:)

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Just found out GF is not a virgin...

Hello guys,

I'll keep this short.

So, last night, I came to learn that my girlfriend is not a virgin. I know many of you will think "pfft, get over it" and all that, but really, I think there's a psychological thing which I think us men have with stuff like this. I'm currently a virgin, and whilst I'm content with that, I think the problem with her not being a virgin is that the fact that I just can't stop thinking about the fact that someone else has 'spoilt' her, I suppose... I wanted my first time with someone who was not a virgin, so that we could 'share' the same experience that we would have. Although, I'm very much so in love with her and I don't want to let her go. However, I have been considering of perhaps finding another girl who is not a virgin to just fulfil this urge. Being a bit of a perfectionist doesn't help either... Should I explain this all to her? :confused: Some words of advice/wisdom would be greatl y appreciated. :/

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Why did I have to fall in love with the foreign girl?

Never dated, never had a girlfriend (I'm 22), largely because it hasn't bothered me that much, dating one girl to the next hasn't interested me and I've just thought it will happen when it happens.

Anyway, there's this girl from abroad who's over here for her gap year (she doing nannying) and she's going back in August.
I've known her for the last 3 months, got to know her better and I really like her, and I think she likes me.

Now there's the whole little matter if her saying yes, but if I do ask her and she says yes, then we will only have 6 months together before she goes back.
Seeing her leave would be heartbreaking, plus she's going back to her country to start uni in September, which is a 3 year course.

So it's either going to be that we break up when she goes, or that we get into a LDR and then break up during it, or we have a successful LDR for 3 years, but even so it would be hard not seeing each other that much.

I just see my mates around me who are in the same situation, but they've met girls who live around the corner, or at least not a very long car journey from...and I think why this couldn't happen to me?

These thoughts are partly (a large part) what's been stopping me from asking her out...I can't plan or know what's going to happen, and I'm left wondering if I'm setting myself up for a world of pain.

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Am I weird for liking skinny guys?

Serious question? Because most guys I know are all, woo biceps, and I feel weird for not swooning whenever I see a guy who clearly spends hours a day in the gym?

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How do guys notice a girl?

What does a guy genuinely notice about girls before being interested in them further?

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what does it mean if a guy gets annoyed when a girl tells him she is a virgin and..

plans to remain so until marriage (or thereabouts)

like angry and causing him to start a debate and pick an argument over it and be a bit abusive.

note this guy is a friend

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Normal for guys to last forever when drunk?

Is it usual for guys to last a very long time when having drunk sex? And how do I possibly speed it up because it can get sore after a while.

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Addictions

I was married to a great man for 5 years then to an addict for the next 3 years!! I knew he had a drinking problem before he met me and it was years before he would even a glass of wine with me. He cheated on me a few years ago and the addictions just keep on coming!! He is a sex addict, porn addict, but worst of all is I think he is a compulsive liar. He was going to bars several months ago and he told me he had "slipped". He told me he went to a bar to drink twice. When the whole truth finally came out, he was stopping by the bar on his way home from work then going back later, usually after 10 pm. He met some people there once and went to their house to play cards until 2 am. He had to be at work at 6am so he was late, still drunk and putting his CDL in jeopardy by driving. we went thru a really rough patch after that but he started back working on his 12 steps and was going to counseling.But then his job moved again so he was too far away from both. H is counselor said they could Skype sessions but he just kept putting it off. I finally could not take the nagging doubts about our past so I had him take a polygraph test. It was very stressful on both of us and pretty expensive but he agreed to it. And he passed with flying colors!! But after all that...I caught him in another lie. And it's such a shame that it was such a small lie. He told me he had 2 drinks but the next day he told me it was 3. Now I am back to doubting everything he says or has ever said. He seemed to think that once I "cooled off" everything would go back to normal. My birthday was since the last lie and he was so sweet...threw me a surprise party, sent flowers, mailed cards and drove home(2 1/2 hours) to take me out to lunch. I know he thinks that should make up for the lie but he is so wrong. He has lied to me so many times!! He will look me straight in the eye and swear he is telling me the truth just for the real truth to come out later. But it seem s when he is working to cover up a lie, his porn and sex addiction isn't so bad. Does anybody else deal with somebody with different addictions?

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What a Difference a Year Can Make!

This is only my second post to TAM as it's been almost an entire year since I posted last. I was ready to leave and walk away from my marriage. I'm thankful to say a lot has changed since that day. I think after my post here I just fell apart from frustration and disgust from the whole situation.

I don't remember everything exactly but after my mini break down my husband really began to make an effort between us. We finally started talking (not as much as I'd like but it was a start and a step up from nothing). We even started having sex a couple of times a month (still not ideal but again better than nothing).

Maybe it was the fact that 20 years was approaching or what but we both began to think and look at our relationship differently. I think be both saw that if we'd fought this hard to stay together for this long our marriage was worth saving.

I'm just thankful that we held on to our promise that if one of us was willing to work at it then the other one has to go along for the ride. I can say that we have worked our way back to some normalcy by making more time for sex, dates and communication.

I do know that we still have at least two elephants left in the room to conquer (my weight and his demons from childhood abuse) to go but I'm hopeful that as we weather these storms things will improve even more between us.

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Anyone going thru divorce impatient to date?

If you know anything about my story it's been a very long drawn out thing starting 5 years ago and it's been almost a year since I filed. I've chatted it up with a few women and have had opportunities to ask them to dinner or whatever but I'm still married AND living at home, so I don't. But it's really frustrating because my marriage is way long over and I really miss the companionship. My stbx and I don't speak, don't sleep in the same bed, don't do anything. And there's some really nice ladies out there.

So is it taboo to go out on a date in my situation? Oh yeah, and my lawyer died 3 weeks ago so yet another delay to the final end. And it's a really simple divorce case.

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Why does it have to be so HARD

:( We hate each other. That's what it's come down to. We can't have a simple conversation without it turning into an argument. So much resentment between us. I constantly feel like he is blaming me or accusing me of something and I'm pretty sure he feels the same way. Yet my husband does not want to separate or get a divorce!! He always promises to change and promises to try hard which only last for a few days before he hates me again. I honestly think that it isn't that he is happy with me.. It's just that he doesn't want anyone else to be happy with me. We both are great people. We just honestly probably should've never gotten married to begin with. We have very little in common which worked at first but didn't keep us going long. Since then it's just been a matter of empty efforts and trying to change so much for the other person that we have forgotten who we truly are. Now nearly 12 years together and almost 6 married; we have 2 children (one is mine that he helped raised from a young age), 2 dogs, a house, and BILLS!! The scary thing for me is being able to maintain our lower middle class lifestyle for our kids. I'm not greedy.. I don't need to have everything.. but it scares me to think if I make him leave that I won't even be able to afford the necessities anymore, let alone the little extra that we do buy! But staying married just for financial convenience seems like a horrible thing to do. I don't even know how to explain my marriage or tell our stories because for so long, I've just been trying ignore everything that's been going on and just get through the days with the least amount of stress. I'm so far from happy that I can't even remember if I was ever happy in my marriage. I look at pictures from the past and I think they were happy times?!? I'm not sure how this is all reflecting on our kids. I try to focus all my positive energy into them.. supporting them, sharing with them, and laughing with them. I'm sure I'm only adding to the issue when I do this, but I don't feel close to my husband anymore. I don't feel like he is my friend. We don't laugh together.. we don't have any conversations that don't involve money, bills, the house, or the kids. He's such a debby downer these days. All he cares about is money and bills.

Like two weeks ago we got into a pretty heated argument where we admitted how unhappy we were and how much we resented each other. I told him that I think we have too much water under the bridge to repair the damage.. that I think it's time to separate. He kind of agreed but then changed his mind. I took off my ring to make meatloaf for dinner and just didn't feel like putting it back on. I told him, it was my way of saying; I am DONE with this marriage the way it is.. and the only way I was putting my ring back on was if I felt happy and in love again and that there was no quick fixes anymore.. that we need to walk away or totally rebuild. He did what he always does.. acts different for a few days and begs for forgiveness. Well I'm still not wearing my ring and I don't feel any closer to putting it on. 

How do I do this??

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Reconciliation?

Is anyone aware of what happened to the 'Reconciliation' thread or am I just overlooking something?

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Paragraphs..I know..ugh..

This group is soo awesome!! I'm just asking one teeny weeny favor from all of you..

When you post..is there any way that you could hit enter now and then to break up your posts as it's really hard to read one long unending post.

Sorry for the inconvenience as I know sometimes the website acts up...either that or many of you are used to posting on websites that hitting enter doesn't create a new paragraph..but a brand new post..

Sorry to be soo fussy but I really would like to enjoy ALL posts.

Thanks a bunch!!:smthumbup:

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