Must I Let Go of My Darling?

Hello all, thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I want to preface by saying that if you are answering my post and would like me to answer yours as well, please leave the link to yours in your answer and I will be more than happy to return the help. I really like this guy who is going into his third year of medical school (we're in the US), so he will be in the hospital doing rotations all the time and I basically won't see him again for at least a whole year. I've known him for almost a year now and have been sending him signals for 9 months (he definitely knows I like him because I told him). I was afraid to get close to him because I know he is super busy and won't have time to dedicate to any type of relationship with me. I might have done the right thing for my incredibly delicate heart by not getting too involved with him but I still feel like **** because I truly cared for him. I would have done anything for him. I really want to be with him but circumstances won't allow us. I just need someone to tell me it will be alright and why/how, please. I'm in such pain right now. I don't want to move on from him and forget about him forever because he was such a beautiful person inside and out, and I really feel like I lost a rare opportunity with this guy. Thank you so much. Please read my list of pros and cons about him: Pros: we have a lot in common (we're from NYC, went to the same magnet high schools, we have the same friends) he's beautiful, the most gorgeous creature I have ever laid my eyes on he's sweet, gentle, and compassionate is brilliant as hell, goes to Harvard (just like me, I'm an undergraduate) is exactly the guy I'm incredibly sexually and intellectually attracted to he's shy just like me so we've been very understanding with each other of this limitation he was still willing to talk to me even after I told him I was into him (usually if a guy knows you like him and is not into you he'd avoid you right?) seems to have tact, so is knowledgeable about how social situations should go but is unsure of how to act in them, which I don't mind if we're together, our friends and families are conveniently in the same city so we can travel to gether, spend holidays together, etc Cons: he is perhaps the biggest pussy I have ever dealt with (unable to approach me, is maybe shyer than I am) doesn't seem to have any balls he seems more insecure than the normal medical student at this particular med school sucks at communicating online, but is not tech savvy to begin with to be fair I had to chase after him like a beast, could not meet me halfway at all, I had to do all the work, although I know my crush on him is my issue entirely and not his responsibility. doesn't seem to see the value in having someone as pretty, smart, understanding, and sweet like me chase so aggressively after him is inexperienced and awkward when it comes to women and social situations in general, making it hard for me and him to connect during our limited amount of time together migh t be battling with his sexual orientation, may be a closet gay or bisexual (more likely bisexual) is in third year of med school so will disappear and not have time for anything but himself is beautiful so he may attract people he's attracted to very soon, destroying my chances

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