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Hey all,
I'm newish to posting and whatnot here. I have something called friedreich's ataxia, I am Wheelchair bound. My husband is my full time caregiver.

I was wondering if there was maybe any other women here who are in the sameish boat who could relate or if anyone has friends or wives or anyone. I've got some sex/relationship questions/issues and some personal issues i wouldn't mind talking about.
Most "normal" people don't/can't get it, so it'd be cool to get some tips/suggestions.

Having FA, I have little to no balance. Sex positions are extremely limited to 3 or 4. We've done a lot of googling but come up short(apparently Balance impaired people don't have sex or something).

My husband says hes good with how we do it, but i worry he'll get bored(if he's not already) We always pretty much matched each others sex drive When we first got together we had sex multiple times a day daily, then it died down after we got married as it does in most cases(still was 3-5x a week) then 4 years ago we moved to NZ(where my husbands from) the first year i was quite depressed and home sick so my drive as way down, then was real high so we decided to get me on bc(low to no hormonal) so i got the Jedelle Implant...big mistake..my libedo was non-existant and i bled for 5 strait months. So out that came, took about 6 more month for my libedo to get back to normal. The Past year and a half my sex drive has been higher then ever and His seems real low(maybe because mines so high?) Super frustrating.

So many things run through my head about why we don't have much sex, is he bored? Is he not attracted to me any more? Is he unhappy? If i ask he tells me by asking like that makes maters worse? Why? What?:confused:

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My Wife is leaning towards moving home / separation / divorce

Hi,

I'm new to this forum and after reading through a number of posts, I've decided to share my story in hopes of getting some advice and support.

I'm 38 and my wife is 31. We've been together for almost six years and married almost three. Last September / October, we moved across the country (from Ontario to Alberta) so that I could accept a new job (my dream job). Without getting specific about what I do, there are only 30 jobs in the world and it's a public, fairly high-profile position. I started working (volunteering) in this field when I was 18 years old, and after spending almost two decades climbing the proverbial ladder, I finally reached my career goal last year.

On our first date, I told my to-be wife what I did for a living and what my career goals were. I also told her that with only 30 jobs in the world, I needed to be with someone who would be willing to move, potentially across the country or maybe even to the U.S., if there was an opportunity. She was on board...or at least she said that she was, or was at the time.

In the next few years, I interviewed for two jobs and didn't get either. I was starting to believe that I was never going to achieve my career goals, and I suspect that she was, too. Last summer, a job opened up and she encouraged me to apply for it. I did, with little hope that I would be successful. After I interviewed for the position, she started to change. Suddenly, she wasn't sure that she was willing to make the move. After much discussion, I told her that I would remove myself from consideration. Her response was that she wanted me to get the job and wanted to move. So, I went for the second interview and was offered the job. When I told her, she flipped out. We had some pretty intense discussions and at one point, I said that after everything that had been said, if she didn't let me accept the offer or didn't go with me, it COULD be the beginning of the end for us. That may have been the case, but I certainly wasn't threatening her. After much more discus sion, she agreed to let me accept the job and make the move. Our next hurdle was telling her parents. My Wife is very close with her Mom and Dad. When we went to their house, I was ambushed. Her Mom and her Dad started screaming at me, calling me selfish and saying that I didn't care about anybody but myself. They just couldn't understand why I would want to move away from family and friends and out of our new house for a job. They said it was "just a job". Obviously, I didn't and never will see it that way.

Luckily, my Wife, who also has a good career, was transferred by her employer to the same position in our new city. They even gave her a cost-of-living increase, which was great. We travelled to our new city and purchased a house, even nicer than the one that we had just built and sold. Everything seemed to be falling into place.

The first few months that we were in Alberta, my wife seemed content. Not happy, but content. She was really trying to establish roots by trying to make new friends through work, volunteering at the SPCA and through meet-ups. She really tried. In hindsight, I probably should have told her how much I appreciated her sacrifice and how much I appreciated how hard she was trying to make it work. Things started to change around January. Even though she was doing the same job for the same company, she wasn't (isn't) as happy at work. She said there is a different "vibe" and that because we are in a larger market, people are more "cut-throat". There isn't the same community in her office in Alberta as their was in Ontario. She would come home upset almost every day. That has been one of our problems.

Another major problem is how much I have to travel for work. While I'm pretty much off all summer, from October through April or May, I am away a lot. On average, I am home (not working at home or traveling for work) 12 or 13 days a month. My Wife keeps telling me how lonely she is, even when I'm here. Even though she swore that she wouldn't resent me for accepting the job and moving across the country, she does...she's admitted it. Moving away from family and friends is hard, but on top of that, she's built a wall around herself and won't let me in. So, not only does she not have her family and friends close by, she is keeping me at arms-length. For months, it has felt more like we are roommates or friends as opposed to Husband and Wife.

I thought things were getting better and was really looking forward to my time off from work so that I could take some things off of her plate around the house and so that we could re-connect as a couple, meet new friends that would give her a support system now, and more importantly, when I go back to work. But since I've been home, things have been worse. She keeps saying that it doesn't matter what happens during the summer because I'm gone all winter. We recently went on vacation to the same place that we went from our honeymoon and other than sitting by the beach or the pool and eating meals together, she didn't want anything to do with me. I would just sit in the lobby bar by myself every night. With that said, I was trying to be supportive and understanding. A couple of days before we left, she had a panic attack at work. I took her to the hospital and they prescribed her medi cation for anxiety / depression. She has been on them for a few weeks now and seems t o be calmer. She also seems a lot colder.

We have been to see a marriage counsellor a couple of times in the last month. The first time we went, my Wife finally admitted that she is angry at me for taking the job and moving. When the counsellor asked her what I could do to make her happier here, she said she didn't know. She also admitted that she had stopped trying to make it work in Alberta and wanted to move back to Ontario. When the counsellor asked me if I was willing to do that, I told her that I didn't think that was the answer because if I give up the job that I worked so hard for, I would only resent my Wife worse than she resents me for taking it and moving here. It would also leave me - and potentially her - without jobs. We would go from both having good / great careers to being unemployed and from being quite secure financially to broke and living in her parents' basement.

Since then, we've had some really good discussions and some really bad arguments. She has said things like "I love you, but I'm not in love with you anymore", "I just want to live a normal life, I don't want to be the wife of a public figure", "I don't want to end our marriage but I don't know if I can or want to live this lifestyle anymore".

Almost everybody that we've talked to - counsellors, family members and friends, have told her that it takes a lot more than eight or nine months to start to get over homesickness and feel more comfortable. I think she gets that, but I'm not sure she wants to or is willing to keep trying.

I caught her in a couple of lies last week, although I must admit that me trying to wrap my head around what is happening led me to do something that I now regret. I couldn't help but wonder if there was someone else. I looked through the messages on my Wife's iPad and found out that she had asked her company about a position in Ontario and that she had gone to the bank. When I asked her if she had started looking for another job, she said no. When I asked her if she had an appointment at the bank, she again said no. She later admitted that she had lied. Until last week, trust was never an issue in our relationship. Now, it is for me because I caught her in a couple of lies and because I looked through her iPad. She never had a problem with me looking on her iPhone or iPad before - and the same went for my phone and tablet. Now, she said that because I did that, she doesn't feel comfortable in her own house.

On Thursday, she texted me to say that she was going to stay in a hotel this weekend. Naturally, this raised a red flag with me. She said that she was doing it to get away from my Dad (he's in town visiting and they've had some uncomfortable discussions about what's happening), and to get away from all of the conflict and tension so that she can think. She swears that she hasn't cheated on me.

Before she left yesterday, we had a really constructive three-hour chat. We were both very calm and level-headed. She told me about all of the things that have and continue to bother her. In addition to being so far from her family and friends, she also has some issues with me. There are no major issues, but a number of minor ones. She said that if we lived in Ontario, the issues wouldn't be as big of a deal and certainly wouldn't have her considering separation / divorce. She feels like because of my career, she's had to give up so much of who she is - mainly the relationships with her family and friends. By the way, she has flown back to Ontario four or five times since we moved to Alberta, her Mom has been here twice, her Dad and Grandma have een here once.

At the end of our conversation, I asked her what her best-case scenario was. Her response was saving the marriage and finding a way to be happy and live a fulfilling life here, with me. She added that she didn't know if she could do it.

I believe that my wife loves me...I just don't know if she loves me enough to make the sacrifices necessary to stay here. I have told her that we may not be here forever. Things change. A lot of things can happen in the field that I work in. And who knows, if we get our marriage back on track and decide to start a family, which is really important to both of us, maybe I will decide that my job keeps me away from my Wife and kids too much, and change careers. I don't know what the future holds professionally. Personally, I love my wife with all of my heart. She is my best friend. I want to save our marriage and rebuild our relationship so badly. The thought of losing her kills me.

I don't know what to think or what to do or not to do. Any experiences, guidance and advice would be much appreciated!
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tough situation

Hey all,
I'm newish to posting and whatnot here. I have something called friedreich's ataxia, I am Wheelchair bound. My husband is my full time caregiver.

I was wondering if there was maybe any other women here who are in the sameish boat who could relate or if anyone has friends or wives or anyone. I've got some sex/relationship questions/issues and some personal issues i wouldn't mind talking about.
Most "normal" people don't/can't get it, so it'd be cool to get some tips/suggestions.

Having FA, I have little to no balance. Sex positions are extremely limited to 3 or 4. We've done a lot of googling but come up short(apparently Balance impaired people don't have sex or something).

My husband says hes good with how we do it, but i worry he'll get bored(if he's not already) We always pretty much matched each others sex drive When we first got together we had sex multiple times a day daily, then it died down after we got married as it does in most cases(still was 3-5x a week) then 4 years ago we moved to NZ(where my husbands from) the first year i was quite depressed and home sick so my drive as way down, then was real high so we decided to get me on bc(low to no hormonal) so i got the Jedelle Implant...big mistake..my libedo was non-existant and i bled for 5 strait months. So out that came, took about 6 more month for my libedo to get back to normal. The Past year and a half my sex drive has been higher then ever and His seems real low(maybe because mines so high?) Super frustrating.

So many things run through my head about why we don't have much sex, is he bored? Is he not attracted to me any more? Is he unhappy? If i ask he tells me by asking like that makes maters worse? Why? What?:confused:

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What is the stupidest fall out/argument you have had with one of your friends?

told my mate he looked like a teacher and he didnt speak to me for 4 hours afterwards

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So... Did you get your...well, you know... on Independence Day?

(One of the board censors sent me a "warning" not too long ago telling me I had a BJ-fixation and to no longer post BJ polls. So, this isn't a BJ poll.)

But, the question still remains... Did your significant other grant your willie independence from your trousers today? While there were fireworks outside, did you see stars while your roman candle was shooting in the bedroom on Independence Day?

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Book on increAsing sexual intimacy

My wife and I are a bit incompatible in the bedroom. We have different tastes and interests. She has a very hard time getting out of her head and being present. Can you offer any good books on increasing sexual intimacy? She is open to reading one but I was caught off guard with no suggestions. Most everything I've read is from the male perspective.
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No one wants to see my kids :(

I never really wanted to have children. Big shocker there, I know. Wasn't too excited about it when the Mrs. told me she was pregnant. Honestly kind of wanted it to be "taken care of". But I persevered, manned up, and handling them fairly well. I'm not the best dad but at least I'm here and I try.

What's getting to me is that no one else seems to want to have anything to do with them. There's always some last minute reason why no one can ever spend time with them. Today, Grandmother was supposed to take them to some 4th Activities, but of course I wake up, she's gone, and the kids are like "WTF? weren't we doing something?"

Honestly they have almost zero relationship with their grandparents. It's not like we drop them off there all the time or try to hit them up for money or overnight babysitting jobs all the time. I don't get it. I can be talking on facebook to my mom and the second I mention maybe visiting with the kids, it'll just say "Seen" and then no more replies for the day.

WTF did we do wrong?

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Anxiety in the morning....

I notice that I often feel anxious in the morning...it tends to subside thru the day unless I am really worried about something...but often it is just an anxious feeling for no real reason. Anybody else experience this?

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What is my ex doing?

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Almost two weeks ago my boyfriend of two years broke up with me. The relationship hadn't been going anywhere for a while and we both got a lot of things wrong. I still love him but he didn't feel that way any more. So I tried to get him back in the week following it, doing all I could. Outlining how we'd repair the mistakes in the relationship and make things awesome next time. But it wasn't enough.

A week later I gave up trying to get him back and sent him a goodbye e-mail. I didn't expect a response but he came back saying he'd date me but he needs to be able to date other guys at the same time and pick the best one - IE non-exclusive to begin with. Kinda like how he was dating multiple people unknown to me before we first entered a relationship. I was hesitant but I figured I'd be able to make him see sense. We watched a film at his on Wednesday night and afterwards he spent an hour touching me and stuff in a romantic way (no sex) making me think he might be taking me back but at the end he just said he can't because he'd cheat - because of guys he's chatting to online and never met.

At the same time as the breakup he started desperately seeking a new boyfriend by scouring Grindr and other dating apps and websites. Since the breakup he's claimed to be dating like three different guys but he has met none of them. It's a clear case of flirting deluding him into thinking they would be better for him, while trying to make me jealous at the same time.

We had an online "fight" yesterday where we said bad things to each other - he attacked me for no reason so I came back even harder. In the evening it was more civil and he spent three hours trying to convince me to be friends with him. I couldn't. During the conversation I said something like "There is nothing I can say/do to get you back and there is nothing you can say/do to make me be friends with you.". He replies with "there is something" and clarified it to be in regards to the first part.

So what exactly could that thing be? It can't be sex. While he has made clear he'd still have sex with me he's also been quite clear it's just sex and wouldn't mean anything in regards to getting him back.

I can't help think he's making a mistake and his mind is being clouded. He claims to be "conflicted", and he's always super tired due to the shock horror of starting a working life a month ago. But on the other hand I feel like he needs to experience some failures, date these guys and see just how bad they are compared to what he has thrown away. He's deluded into thinking he can have that fairytale romantic relationship where everything is perfect and thinks that I can't give him that but guys he's frantically searching the internet for right now can. We had a great foundation and with some issues resolved it could have been something special. I think he'd come running back but I need to move on not wait.

What do you think is running through his head?

Just to clarify, I'm a guy. :P

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will it be a problem in our relation if we are miles away?

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Hello,

I am in a relation for 6 years now. We both love each other truly. We live in different country its been 1 year now. He is really a nice guy he never broke my trust. I work in a care home and study in college so, i don't get time to meet him. We chat in Facebook and talk on Skype. Main problem is he always gets horny :@.. I trust him i know he is not going to cheat on me but you know what i mean I am afraid that he might get attract with other girls and i don't want that. What should i do? He is also a busy guy, he have his own business so i never force him to come here and meet me. He always watch porn now he say everything to me. but i am so afraid that he is getting sick of that and hope he don't break my trust. What should i do to get out of this porn world?

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I got wasted and kissed a girl

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So yesterday I went to a party and had a bit too much to drink and in the morning I woke up with really bad cuts and bruises everywhere! But I remember kissing one of my friends that I've had a 'crush' for ages and now that I'm thinking of it I feel really awkward about it, but I believe it's clearance of how I feel so I can continue being friends with her?

Do I speak about or do I just leave it and never mention it?

It's really annoying as I'm quite an insensitive person and she's the only person that makes me feel things and it's really really bloody annoying.

I'm also not bi, I'm comfortably straight with a slight exception for this person?

What do I even do?

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Had enough

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I have known a guy for a while and he likes me but we keep falling out as he dates other women. He doesn't know I know he dates other women. I don't want to be second best so I blank him as he keeps hurting my feelings by leading me on and the dating other women.

He told my friend he feels there is a barrier with me and that I am quiet. I am like this because of the hurt he has caused. There were plenty of opportunities to talk last night but he acted uncomfortable and like a child with my friend when she asked him what was going on. He told my friend he thinks I am pretty and attractive. His friends have said he feels like a nervous wreck around me.

After, I saw him talking to a woman and he kept holding his hand against head and his facial expression was like something had gone wrong. I have had enough of this ongoing game. How can I sort this out? I find it hard as we are all part of the same social circle. I want someone who is emotionally available.

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How To Survive This Party

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It's come to that time of year where my girlfriend(10 months) is throwing a birthday party this weekend, normally not an issue since I attend quite a lot of parties. However, the majority of the people there will be her friends from college, most of which I do not think are very fond of me or have never met me.

I think I will literally have met 4 people there before hand, maybe not even that.

Any advice or tips on how to survive this party, tips on making the right impressions and just making it through the night ?

Thanks, :)

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Do any women go through life like this?

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Is it possible to go through life laid back and carefree as a single woman? I see some men do it they just spend life having a laugh, having the odd relationship and taking life as it comes until old age. Do you know of any women like this though without children/family but who are happy go lucky?

It seems women tend to take things more seriously. Of course I'm talking in general but this is what I've observed

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How can you find someone "sexy" and not want to have sex with them?

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Can someone explain this to me?

If you find someone "sexy" you find them sexually appealing which means that you want to have sex with them.

My 17 year old sister said that a 40 year old man is "sexy"

I asked her if she would have sex with him

She said no.

I don't understand why won't have sex with him if she finds him sexually appealing.

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Met on TSR, speaking over Skype, slowly falling for him...

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And I somewhat know it will not work out, which does of course irritate me.

How do I not fall for this man? I mean, my entire life I've never come across someone like him. It's extremely difficult.

The heart wants what it wants - either I find a way to suppress that love, or I'm sure it'll come to an end, bitterly, all too soon.

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I want to break up with my boyfriend but he needs me

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I've been with my boyfriend for a month. We have always been great friends. He is depressed and used to self harm, but about 3 months ago he started to feel better and stopped.
Since last week or so I have wanted to break up with him, and recently he was been thinking about self harming again. He doesn't know that I want to break up with him, he tells me that I am the only thing keeping him happy and that he loves me more than anything, so I feel really guilty and selfish because I don't want to hurt him. But I really don't want to be with him, I thought that because we were great friends we would be great together, but it isn't working out in my opinion.
I really don't know what to do. I want to break up with him but I don't want to hurt him.

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