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He won't touch me

I've been with my husband for 20 yrs, married for almost 18 yrs.
I'm 37 and he's 40. We've always had a good sex life until a couple of years ago. He was always very loving and now he won't come near me, no hugs, kisses no sex for over a year. He even sleeps on the couch every night. I have begged him to show me some affection and all he says is I'm not in the mood. I've sat him down & talked to him about it & he says nothing at all. I'm so confused. He makes me feel like there's something wrong with me.




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I'm surprised this doesn't happen more often





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Politics vs Family on Facebook

Ok...maybe this seems stupid and jealous...but my husband is obsessed with posting political post on facebook 24/7....I'm talking at least 20 political post/photos per day....does he ever post photos of his kids or write post about his wife? Nope...is it dumb that I'm jealous? It wouldn't bother me if he never posted about us as long as he wasnt posting other things...but to know that he has time to post political crap and not us, it's a little frustrating....he's a great husband and father, don't get me wrong...I guess it would be nice to have a sweet post from my husband from time to time....




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Wife has NO passion

Passion is the only word that really describes what is missing. My wife of 13 years will do pretty much anything I want sexually but when we kiss, I can almost feel her waiting for it to end. I think I have known this from the beginning but thought it was something I could live with. I do believe she loves me completely which is why I am struggling so much with this. I don't want to end up married to a roommate. It breaks my heart to think about leaving her and the thought of my daughter (10) being crushed by divorce. I don't want to throw in the towel but I don't think this is something that can change, her not wanting me. 13 years into our marriage, I still walk in at the end of the day and want to "make out" with her. HELP! We discuss this in depth, and after tears and tears, it ends up the same, she just can't help it, she has no passion. I need to wanted, is that selfish? Should I suck it up and deal with it? Do I deserve a passi onate relationship? HELP ME!




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you ****ing *****

this website is full of stupid *****




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Being called creepy or a creep..

This thread was spurred by another thread and some research i've down on the subject matter "creep shaming".

How do you feel about being called a creep? I personally think it's one of the most offensive things a man can be called. A stalker, serial rapist or a pedophile is a creep(understandably). But has anyone every been called a creep just because a someone didn't return your romantic feelings? How did it make you feel? Have you ever wanted to try something different with your wife or girlfriend and she told you were being creepy? I don't mean animal sacrifices. But maybe some roleplay or sex somewhere..
If a woman calls me a creep even in a joking manner, I feel like I can never speak to her again.




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Casual sex or more??

So I've met a guy a couple of weeks ago, ended up as a ONS. I liked him and it was really nice, but that was all for me. I had let slip where I usually hang out and, coincidentally (yea sure), I met him again, which he seemed very happy about.
As I said, I had enjoyed his company and the sex was really good so we kinda started this f*ckbuddy thing. I dont have a problem with casual sex and I have to admit I really really enjoy it with him as it just keeps getting better and better lol. :D

The thing is Im not entirely sure what he thinks about all this...
Hes not the calm, sensitive, romatic kinda guy, on the contrary- Id rather classify him as the kind that drinks, smokes, parties, does stupid stuff with his friends and sleeps around. The kind that is not ready for a serious relationship yet.
We basically only meet to have sex but he doesnt behave like other guys who are just in it for the sex. He wants to cuddle a lot (i mean a LOT) and is always telling me those terribly sweet and nice things, and Im not talking about that usual cheesy ****, I know all that. Plus, he knows that hes gonna get it anyway.
Also, he's always asking me if I have been seeing any other guys, he's telling me that he wants to see me more often, when I'm not seeing him he's texting me that he misses me (mostly with a sexual allure though) AND he wants me to stay awfully long in the mornings, just cuddling.
I've had casual things happening in the past and he just doesn't seem like those other guys. But maybe he just is like that.
We keep joking around, especially me. if he starts with that emotional stuff I always try and make it into some kind of sex joke.
I don't really want a reationship atm but am finding the thought of him falling for me disturbingly appealing. You know, I think I am falling for the idea of him falling for me.

Any opinions? Preferably guys, what do you think of this behaviour?

I know that Im gonna have to ask him at some point, but for now I'd just like some outside opinions, cos dont want to risk ending it (have I mentioned that the sex is AMAZING??)




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I never fancy guys anymore - what is wrong with me?

i'm 19 i do have a sex drive and i do find men attractive, the idea of sex with men attractive... there are men i find attractive... but when it comes down to it i always manage to find a flaw which puts me off.


at secondary school, i fancied guys long term, guys i had no chance with because i was shy and quiet and never spoke to them. i had a crush on the same 3 guys (in cycles with periods of not fancying them, sometimes fancying all 3 at same time) until i left school... and then a few other guys along the way between years 7-9. particularly this guy (one of the previously mentioned 3) i had had a crush on originally in year 7, then intermittantly throughout school until it came back STRONG in year 10 and stayed there. when we went to 6th form i started talking to him more in class and even went on a school residential trip for 1 week where we got on excellently (he said it was the most he had laughed ever)... after that things turned down a bit because i started being shy around him and backed off a bit and although we still talked a lot, we didn't have such an energy and spark. i never told him how i felt because i was obviosuly scared and he had casual sex with a few girls so h e obviously didn't feel the same.


i'm on a gap year now and have moved on from all these crushes... but now i don't fancy ANYONE. i have met some really nice guys that like me, for example i met one guy and he was attractive and i talked to him a lot... but when he tried to kiss me i rejected himbut we were still talking/joking after.. but now if i bump into him it's awkward (not because of me, i am not shy/quiet anymore... it is him, he acts really nervous and on edge).. i didn't like HIM because he wasn't dominant enough... then there was another guy who is REALLY nice and i went home with him one night when we went out together and i think he wanted sex and i was kind of up for it but then when i go into the bed with him i realised i REALLY didn't fancy him (even though i did previously a little bit, not like when i've fancied people before) and it didn't happen... he was SUCH a lovely guy though..
things like this happen often but i find guys want to move fast and i think i need time to realise i fancy someone... but they always go in for the move before i have time to know what i want. i get quite a lot of attention from guys.


i am a virgin and i don't know what to do. i just want to find a nice guy but i feel kind of emotionally blank right now and i hate it, i really want to find a guy i feel a spark for, like with the guy at 6th form... but it just doesn't happen.




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Online Dating After Seperation...

I'm currently going through a divorce. We really haven't been a happy couple since August of 2011 and have basically been living apart since April of 2012. I've tried to make things work by talking and setting up counseling but she's not into it. I have no regrets in that matter. We had no kids.

In October I finally took the plunge into online dating. I put my relationship status as separated which is the truth but I also wrote that there wasn't a chance of us getting back together.

I'm on 3 dating sites. In almost 6 months I think I've written to well over 100 girls of all types. Single moms, divorcees, widows, never been married, etc.. I'm not looking for quick hook ups, I'm looking for a real relationship and I only contact girls that appear to want the same and seem to have the same mentality as me.

I've only received responses from a small handful of girls. I consider myself to be an attractive man and I go out of my way to read and respond to their profiles and ask questions about it. It's very frustrating, especially when you're contacting single mom's. It's doubly frustrating when you see these girls on the website all the time AFTER you contact them and they don't respond. Maybe they wouldn't have to be on the website if they wrote me back. :)

Some girls contact me first but 99 times out of 100 they are not my type. I don't want to sound like an a hole, but let's just say that most of these girls that contact me first are not the thinnest of girls and that's not my type at all.

I've really only gotten into a deeper conversation with one girl and we went out 3 times and it went no where. No chemistry between us at all. The whole thing just felt really weird.

Last week I resorted to changing my relationship status to divorced. I did it because we practically are divorced. We're living apart and she has everything she wants from the house already. I have a lawyer and he's working on the papers. All we need are some signatures and the process is done. I will say that I think I've had a little more interest in girls since the change but it's only been about a week. I exchanged a few emails with one girl and after about the second email I explained my relationship status and she didn't seem to mind as long as I didn't have any crazy ex drama which there shouldn't be. Then again, I haven't heard from her in a few days. lol

I understand that many girls get a lot of emails from different guys daily so I'm up against a lot of competition. It's just that after 6 months of doing this I thought I would have had better results.

It's all a crap shoot too. If a girl doesn't respond to me should I just move on? Should I try contacting her again in a week or so? Is she going to appreciate the fact that I'm contacting her a second time or is she going to think it's creepy. Like I said, it's a crap shoot.

One girl wrote that she loved Billy Joel in her profile. I wrote her saying I've been to many Billy Joel concerts and I asked her what her favorite song was. She emailed me back, "Ewww, that's creepy."

Can someone explain to me how I was being creepy? lol

Anyway, if you read this whole thing then thank you. It's just another lonely Saturday night for me.....




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I never fancy guys - what is wrong with me?

i do have a sex drive and i do find men attractive, the idea of sex with men attractive... there are men i find attractive... but when it comes down to it i always manage to find a flaw which puts me off.


at secondary school, i fancied guys long term, guys i had no chance with because i was shy and quiet and never spoke to them. i had a crush on the same 3 guys (in cycles with periods of not fancying them, sometimes fancying all 3 at same time) until i left school... and then a few other guys along the way between years 7-9. particularly this guy (one of the previously mentioned 3) i had had a crush on originally in year 7, then intermittantly throughout school until it came back STRONG in year 10 and stayed there. when we went to 6th form i started talking to him more in class and even went on a school residential trip for 1 week where we got on excellently (he said it was the most he had laughed ever)... after that things turned down a bit because i started being shy around him and backed off a bit and although we still talked a lot, we didn't have such an energy and spark. i never told him how i felt because i was obviosuly scared and he had casual sex with a few girls so h e obviously didn't feel the same.


i'm on a gap year now and have moved on from all these crushes... but now i don't fancy ANYONE. i have met some really nice guys that like me, for example i met one guy and he was attractive and i talked to him a lot... but when he tried to kiss me i rejected himbut we were still talking/joking after.. but now if i bump into him it's awkward (not because of me, i am not shy/quiet anymore... it is him, he acts really nervous and on edge).. i didn't like HIM because he wasn't dominant enough... then there was another guy who is REALLY nice and i went home with him one night when we went out together and i think he wanted sex and i was kind of up for it but then when i go into the bed with him i realised i REALLY didn't fancy him (even though i did previously a little bit, not like when i've fancied people before) and it didn't happen... he was SUCH a lovely guy though..
things like this happen often but i find guys want to move fast and i think i need time to realise i fancy someone... but they always go in for the move before i have time to know what i want. i get quite a lot of attention from guys.


i am a virgin and i don't know what to do. i just want to find a nice guy but i feel kind of emotionally blank right now and i hate it, i really want to find a guy i feel a spark for, like with the guy at 6th form... but it just doesn't happen.




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At a crossroads and need help.

My husband and I have been together for 11yrs. But only married 6 months...... Over this time we have been through our ups and our downs. Several years ago when the economy took a dive he lost his job. Right before he lost it, we decided that I would go back to school and he would be the main financial support. I still worked part time and contributed, just not as much. When he lost the job we decided that we would just make it through and really budget..... He fell into a depression about not finding another management job and its been a struggle ever since .... Now that I am graduating, there are a lot of bills and stuff coming in and I am now realizing he never took care of our financial needs. We owe a ton of money, I'm trying to pay off everything, while he still works part time.....and NOW it's been 3 months with NO SEX..... And there always seems to be an excuse when I try an initiate..... It kills me to be constantly turned down..... It's like he has no drive.... Over the years our sex life has dwindled much to my disappointment, but now there is nothing... NOTHING. I don't feel connected to him at all..... I'm mad that he hide our finances, I'm mad that he is no longer affectionate and I don't know what to do???.......... Sometimes I feel like divorce is the only option, but then I feel guilty because we just got married and I know our families will be very disappointed..... I'm so lost and don't know what to do anymore..... Do men really just lose the need for sex???




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Pushing on

Hey guys, I had a few days with my head under the water so to speak since the V-day BDSM safeword incident, and my wife is just as stubborn as me when it comes to being non-compromising especially now, we're both backed to corners but still fighting.

Backstory: Wife and I have seperated due to issues with her sexual demands and my behaviour in response, we were on the road to reconciliation until V-day, when she ignored safewords during a BDSM trial and brought back memories of a rather traumatic past experience (by the same woman).

I decided not to accept half-assed apologies when it comes to ignoring safewords, not to mention the incident has made me realise that demon of hers is still really there. At the same time she is blameshifting and neglecting the error of her ways attempting to justify the whole incident. After constant fighting we've both had enough, and I told her I can't deal with her anymore and nor she. She's lost the will to fight for our marriage and so have I, we're both too stubborn.

My head has been under the water for some time and I contemplated anti-depressants but I've recently resurfaced and caught my breath. There's no longer any obligation for either of us to stay together, we're free to move on. Although it pains me to think of her with another man and having him in my daughter's life as well, I can not fold. She needs a yes man, a horny one at that.

Anyways I'm doing better, I can do this
Just another mountain to climb, at least I'll have some scars to show at the end eh? Maybe I won't recover from this, I've lost all desire for sharing my future with someone else, the only way I'm coping is focusing on myself, my dreams, my aspirations. For a while I lost all motivation to do anything, even wanted to hire a GM to take over management of my business due to my lame performance recently resulting in my staff having lack of hours this month, contemplated suicidal thoughts...

But I'm over it. If anything, I'm motivated enough to see this through simply for the sake of seeing it through and proving to myself that I can do it, that's enough to live for, I've convinced myself of that. I have to be determined. Anyways, I don't know what else I can get from this forum, I may not be posting much anymore, but I would like to express my sincere thanks in supporting me over the last 2 years even if my marriage has reached its last dead end.




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I truly am trapped in a cycle and at the end the end of what I can take

:( I have never joined a forum or spoke to anyone that didn't have a biasis opinion because the see what I say or have their own agendas. I has constantly asked my wife to go outside of her very small circle of who she can talk to since I feel that they have helped put us where we are. I am not sure where I should even begin, but I do hope someone takes the time to read this and can help offer outside advice. Otherwise i guess I am writing a diary.
My relationship began many years ago. I was eight years older than my wife and she was a thing of pure beauty and kindness.
We began dating, then began to fall In love, but I always felt that the bonds that she shared with her family were a little to strong. We were having such a great time I didnt let the feeling get in the way.
Then it started, a feeling that everything soon needed to meet her family's approval. It started with minor things like I wanted to take seperate cars to an event, but the concern that her family would disprove of my decision always worked its way in. Then things got more pronounced and it became more clear that in my eyes at least I would never come first and I would always have to concern myself that my wife was worried about disappointing her family rather than simply ending it and telling them that I am a grown man and they don't pay my bills so they should keep their opinions to themselves. That major idea never stuck. It was never said and for years I had to worry what I wore how much I ate if I said enough or too much.
It seemed as though I was the only one that could do wrong.
Fights got worse because I felt that my side was never taken and that even the mention of her family or her being wrong resulted in tremendous battles usually with her heading straight to the spare bedroom.
Each and every time there was a disagreement she could never except that it was partially her fault. The only thing that truly mattered was her family.
When then weekends would come it would be the family visit consisting of an 8 hour day. When our daughter was born they were there from opening to closing not giving us a minute to soak it in. Then they wanted to come home from the hospital and stay with us during our first days with her. All of these things were an argument, not common sense and wrong. The boundaries were over stepped so many times in so many ways and each time, never was my side seen. We began to do less of the things that attracted us and she became more attached with her family.
It seemed that we were slipping away.
I was told so many times that she only stayed with me because... Each time changing the reason why... But never until this biggest blowout that could change our lives forever and destroy our ten month old daughter that she took responsibility for her actions and understood how they could cause my reactions. We are stuck in a circle I say she needs to take responsibility and make changes that will in return allow me to move past the deeply cut i truly don't love yous that I have been hearing for years and then she will see the changes in me. Of course she says the opposite.
I don't want to be a statistic. I never told her I didn't love her but over the years ive heard it far to many times. I think I can say if I never heard it again I might be able to sleep.
There are many details that I can't add because they would be crushing to her because she lost her dad. I am not allowed to bring up a point that highlights why something's have such resentment because of things that were said or not said because she is morning.
I just know that I have heard i hate you, there is nothing I like about you, you make me sick, the thought of having sex with you makes me sick far too many times. I believe that the only was for this pattern to be broken is for her to realize that I can't give her what she wants,unless i am seeing a change. This has gone on too long.
I read, I read on the net, I bounce ideas off of others, I want to do the right thing. She goes to the people that I feel screwed us up. I wish she had come a bit closer to her vow and focused on us and our new family.
I wish I could say more but I want to be polite.
The last argument ended with it is over I do not love you and even though my family says we should work it out I accept it., again part of the problem is the family but I can't listen to that ever again. I swore to myself last time that the next time she took off her ring and slept downstairs I would simply quit.
By the way this came to a beginning on the way to my bday dinner. I brought up an idea for simple conversation and was me with.... Not Interested. I explained,it was ok i was just trying to talk. Well it went out of control and ruined dinner.
Then two days later my parents wanted to see my baby and have a cake for me and take some pictures. There was no cake. My parents offered to get it and my,wife was just uncooperative. The next day as I was leaving for work she was on the phone with her sister rehashing my dinner in a tone that was just not appreciated.
I honestly think that if over so many years you say the same things and don't love who you are with it must be true especially if you will not see your place in the problem.
Another lonely night.
simply believe




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is he cheating or not

the back story is 4 years ago my husband got demoted and transferred to another retail chain .The rumor around town (we live in a small) town is that he got transferred to another store b/c he was caught in the back of the store having sex with another women. I dismissed this as a rumor until recently when i got the chicks full name and the some substance as to where and when this happened. we live in a small town but now that i actually have a name of this girl i just cant get this out of my head. do i confront the girl?I know where she works (no longer at the retail store). and is this reason enough to go digging around? please help. i am confused and heart broken.




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I'm splitting my mum and dad up.

So basically I'm 16 and male and I a good boy (don't mess around in sixth form, not badly behaved etc) but I always argue with my dad. He says most of the time it's because I rude and I don't do things, like tonight it was because I was doing coursework at 12 which I don't see as a big problem but yeah. So, we always have these little arguments but apart from them we're fine, I mean we go to watch football together and so on, but there's been a couple of big arguments that have left me hating myself because I know it's splitting my parents up. This is because my mum hates it when we argue and yeah that leads to my parents arguing. Tonight after the coursework thing my mum was really mad. She was slaing doors like I've never seen her before, she was saying "if I died tonight, you wouldn't care" to me. She also shouted "Is this what you wanted? We'll see tomorrow when I'm packing my bags." This absolutely wrecks me. To know I'm ruining my parents re lationship kills me so much. And I know you'll say "change then" believe me I try, but I can't. I just don't know what do, I just want to run away if I'm honest. They're sleeping now, i just want to pack my things and go. I won't be causing any problems anymore, will I?




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Help!My mate makes a pass at me:/

Okay so today I went to a wedding and my old high school mate happened to be there as he was related to the bride.And he came up to me,gave me a hug and was like hey long time!Just casual conversation.He's like he'll talk to me later and I'm like okay.So I see him laters and he asks me to come with him cause he wants to talk and I'm like okay.So he took me to a private room,and I'm like 'why do we have to go to a private room'?He's like the musics so loud so we sat down,touches my knee and then he's like 'Let's get on it'I'm like the ****?!Are you drunk?And he's like nah so I asked him how much did you drink and he's like a couple of glasses.The thing is he could walk straight though,I don't know.I left after and I'm like okay ill see you laters.I thought maybe he was drunk so I left it.But I don't know.I feel so mad!Im not sure if he was even drunk -.-




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Help!This guy makes me a pass at me:/

Okay so today I went to a wedding and my old high school mate happened to be there as he was related to the bride.And he came up to me,gave me a hug and was like hey long time!Just casual conversation.He's like he'll talk to me later and I'm like okay.So I see him laters and he asks me to come with him cause he wants to talk and I'm like okay.So he took me to a private room,and I'm like 'why do we have to go to a private room'?He's like the musics so loud so we sat down,touches my knee and then he's like 'Let's get on it'I'm like the ****?!Are you drunk?And he's like nah so I asked him how much did you drink and he's like a couple of glasses.The thing is he could walk straight though,I don't know.I left after and I'm like okay ill see you laters.I thought maybe he was drunk so I left it.But I don't know.I feel so mad!




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Don't have a type?

Hello

I was chatting to my friend and she asked me what type of women do I go for.

I told her that I didn't have a specific type of woman I go for and I wouldn't rule any women out.

Im a cute, good looking guy and my friend said I could have any women I wanted. Thats obviously not true but I know most men/women have specific types of people they go for.

Does anyone else have an open mind about women or do you have a specific type of women you want as a girlfriend/partner?




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Pictures of husband with other women

Recently I found picture of my hubby and another woman on his phone. I confronted him and he says oh that was at a golf tournament and some of the wives came out to take pictures. Well I am a wife I have never be aware that we go to these thing also, and if they are there to take pictures how was it taken on your phone. (found another pic of him and another woman several years back and we worked it out) not sure how I am feeling. I am hurt and he says it is dumb for me to me upset. It is one of the guys he works with wife. Am I just thinking the wrong thing?




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Good move or no go?

Okay so a while back I decided I like this girl who's a pretty close friend of mine!

I've gotten a few signs here and then;
Really tight hug, talks quite sexually to me o_0' and one point asked me about why I won't go out with her (I said I liked Girly girls and her reply was 'is that why you won't go out with me?') and I'm not too sure if these are signs but occasionally if I overstep the mark she'll slap me on the wrist or hit me on the stomach, she's okay with me touching her breasts every now and then which is weird.......

But the only wrench in the gear is I have several friends of whom also like her but are taking forever to make a move... Like, we're talking years here... They would probably be devastated if I made a move on her...

So my question is... Should I tell this girl how I feel regardless of my friends and/or is it selfish to do so?

I'd really appreciate it if someone could help me out this has been driving me craaaaazy for weeks now!


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Spouse Will Not Recognize Own Mental Issues, really starting to take a toll. . .

Hi, I really need any advice I can get. I really have no one else to talk to, I don't want to make my husband look bad to our friends and family, and I just feel stuck.

I really don't even know where to begin, I could write an entire book on the turbulence of our relationship. We have been married for one year and together for 9 (living together for 8 yrs total) He has always had serious insecurity, trust, and abandonment issues which I thought would decrease as our relationship continued. I myself have bipolar disorder and have been on med's and going to regular therapy sessions for about 3 years now, so I'm not perfect and have had my share of mess up's in our relationship but I decided I needed to get treatment and went out and got it. He on the other hand blames almost (95%) of everything on me alone, always makes himself out to be the victim, either looses his temper completly or is completly passive (like right now he is in the other room blasting rock songs that are singing about lying women who screw over the men they are with, no doubt he is doing it completly on purpose) and I feel like I am walking on eggshells all the time. I am so exhausted both emotionally and physically and just can't deal with it anymore.

He has a college degree but graduated 5 years ago, since then he has been living off his left over college fund money and has not had a job. He keeps saying he's looking for a job etc. but he isn't. He doesn't help me clean or do anything around the house, he won't even make his own food. I literally do everything and if I don't then it doesn't get done. I go to school full time (double major), work part time, and do everything around the house. If I bring it up he either gets pissed off or says he'll help and never does. To make matters worse his dad comitted suicide 6 months ago and he has just gotten worse, hardly gets out of bed. He has also since become paranoid and convinces himself of things that didn't really happen. One of his friends gave us bed bugs (didn't tell my husband that his house was infested so they got brought back to our house) which got bad for a bit but then we got rid of them. However, he insists that they are crawling into his skin and living t here. When I showed him articles written on bed bugs and how they DO NOT live in peoples skin he just said they were wrong and that he has proof (he picks at his skin and collects any little speck of dirt). I researched and found out it is a condition where people convince themselves that bugs are living on them but it is hard to treat because they don't think that they are wrong. I kept trying to tell him that there were no bugs and that he was just mentally convincing himself and he blew up and almost divorced me. The only way I could get him to stop picking at his skin (and I mean severe picking, many open wounds and cuts all over his skin) was to basically agree with him but convince him the "bugs" were demodex (eyelash mite) that has gotten out of control due to stress, low immune system, etc. He has been using medication to heal his skin at least but there are no bugs at all.

Unfortunately he also convinces himself of things that are not true. He turns everything I do or say into "your lying to me" "your a liar", thinks I go out and cheat on him etc. or says that he hears me doing drugs when I'm not (I'm a recovered addict). If I say that he is wrong and that I'm not doing those things he just blows up and says "I heard you". I don't know what he's hearing but I was not doing any drugs. He also said I seen you hide something when I walked in, I was eating some breakfast and hid nothing. I feel like no matter what I do he is going to find something wrong or something to say I lied about, I can never do anything right even though I wait on him hand and foot. I know that this behavior is just enabling but it's the only way I can keep him somewhat clam and when he's not calm and fighting with me for days I can't concentrate on my school work and it triggers my bipolar disorder and go into a depressive state. His friends have approaced me and said tha t they are worried about him and can see that his mental state has changed but no one knows what to do because A) He won't acknowledge it, and B) He would never consent to get help. I have brought up marriage counseling and he just flips out, he won't go with me to my therapy sessions and just basically says I'm the one with the problems and not him. If I forced him/admitted him to get help he would go nuts and possible kill himself or divorce me. I have never wanted to leave him before, or even thought about it, I love him and we do have moments of greatness but lately those moments are rare.

I feel like I have to just give up my pride and agree to things that I didn't do or see to just keeps things civil. If I disagree with him about anything he flips out and I just don't want to live like this. He won't get help and I feel like why am I even married? I don't have a partner in life, he doesn't bring anything to the marraige except pain and anxiety and I feel like I'm raising a child and not growing together with an adult.

Sorry this is so long but I really don't have anyone else to talk to for advice and I'm reaching the end of my rope. I really do love my husband but I can't make him care about himself or our marraige, I can't make him want to do something with his life and I can't make him get help. Any advice would be appreicated, Thank You.




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