Im female, late twenties and have never had sex. Ive always been quiet and not had a group of friends to socialise with etc. ive been on dates etc but have felt nothing for the guy nor have i ever felt the urge to have intercourse. I enjoy keeping fit and i suppose ive been dedicated to this most of my life.
I remember at school i never had crushes on guys my age it was usually much older men like teachers or sports instructors. I never told anyone though. Ive had a crush on a man in his 50's who goes to my sports club for the past 7 years, he is 58 now still looks good/charming and has a fit body though.
A few months ago I told myself that i need to get a grip and look for someone my age to settle down with as im getting older. Then suddenly this 50 odd year old man asks me for a drink and now im auddenly going out with him. I worry a lot about what others will think about the age gap. What i dont understand though is the fact that i dont like kissing him nor do i have any interest for sex. It can turn me on when he hugs me, we cuddle etc but i just feel that im not getting anything from the kissing other than germs lol. Thats part of the reason i dont want sex, he has had many partners in his life and i dont want to catch anything. He doesnt drive i do all the driving and pay at least half for everything so im contributing.
We were talking about kissing and sex he said that its natural human instinct but how come ive never had that instinct? I dont want him to think im weird but i can only get turned on by him stroking my back thats it lol. He sent me a pic of his genitals (last my last boyfriend who was my age did) but it just does nothing for me.
Is it possible that i just dont have a sexuality?? The attraction to older men makes me wonder if im abnormal too.
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