Relationships are no longer appealing...

...to me. Let's start from the top. I was in two relationships in my life. My first one didn't last long and ended on a hilarious note. We didn't do much beyond kissing and we had nothing in common. But what the heck! I only accepted her because 'why not?', but I already had my eyes on someone else. That someone else did became my girlfriend. And I have to say, it was amazing. Loved every second of it. Even proposed to her. It was six years of pure bliss, then it ended, I went insane and now I've been fine as of a few months. After that, my belief in relationships being fulfilling are becoming less and less appealing. I was friends with a lass for a while and even though we could be good together, it was just a glorified friendship. Then next lass started off well, but then something happened and we aren't talking. What annoyed me is that we had a excellent connection, but that died off. Any investment in other lasses beyond friendship start to turn into trial and error, even to the point that I must be partaking in a game. Eventually, I came to a realisation. Why bother having a relationship? Honestly, my needs are already met. I have love from my family. Love from my friends. I honestly don't miss the sex. And there is a lot of things I could be doing. Focusing on my education. Finding new hobbies. Explore the world. Once I did cast away the needs of having a relationship, I no longer felt trapped. I can do anything, even if it means that I am giving up on love, intimacy and the cuddles. And trust me, I ****ing love cuddles, but it isn't worth a relationship. I have no interest in one night stands. I have no interest in flirting with a woman. I honestly believe that after my years, I realised that relationships are a waste of time and there are much, better things to invest into. And it makes me sad that some people are pining for relationships. Or the need to have a boyfriend or girlfriend to come home to. But because of this mindset I have, others have call it unhealthy and say that I cannot stay in that forever. Maybe they are right. Maybe I'll find the 'one' again. But right now, I am happy with the decision I made. Relationship sucks. I am happy with my hand for sexual release. What about you?

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