I just need to grieve here. I just found out a friend of mine (not a close friend) has just took his own life. His girlfriend was seeing another man on the side, plus he was on the run from the amry and feared that they would lock him up forever. He was 21, he was a good looking lad and would talk to anyone. He was very disciplined but he was such a lovely lad.
When he fell on bad time he would stay at mine and sleep in the spareroom and his last girlfriend also cheated on him because he was in Afghanistan at the time. He never got on with his mum and dad. Me and him shared interests especially in fitness.
I cannot believe that he would do this after I told him months back that I am here if he needs someone to turn to for advice.
He hung himself earlier today. I am crying my eyes out as I type but words cannot express what I feel right now. I wish I could have got to know him more. He was not like any young lad I have ever known. He was very special and now he's gone.
And I cannot help but pciture in my mind, him putting the rope around his neck and taking his life. He had nothing to live for. Why didn't he just go his seargant or something? He couldn't. He spent 2 years with a different name, hiding from the police, I gave him some food and took him in. He was a talented soldier and I can remember training with him once or twice. He was very clever, very sharp.
But he's gone now.:( Just don't know what to do with myself. I feel so guilty, but the signs were not there. Another friend of mine said that he was fine a few days ago.
RIP Brian.
I will miss you.
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