Firstly, we started off slow and got to know each other about 7/8 months ago. He found out I was gay and he had no problems with it what so ever. Since then, we've got closer and closer and we text virtually all the time now and when we're together in with our friendship circle we're normally together.
Right so, despite having a really good friendship with him about two months ago, I didn't have no real attraction to him. I loved him and thought he was a brilliant person, but as a friend. But since then, we've got closer but literally and physically at times and he has shown signs he could be into guys. A few weeks ago he went through a stage where he literally couldn't stop talking about this one guy (a celeb) and saying things like 'He'd get it' and said that even out of both sexes, this one male celeb was his ultimate crush. In additon this, he rates guys loads and is constantly talking about hot guys lately and sending me pics via text of other celebs and people who he thinks our hots.
Following on from this, he has agreed he'd go to a gay bar with me (we were joking) and I said I'd totally hit you up with a guy, to which he responded 'haha please do', then I was like 'Would you actually?' then he said 'possibly but unlikely'. In addition to this, when I told him about my gay friend, he took immense interest and added him on Facebook and called him '****ing gorgeous' and I should get with him, which I found totally bizarre as I only know this guy on the internet.
The other day was the final straw for me. We went out and I asked him how things he is with girl he obsesses over and whether he likes her still. He became really awkward and just said 'I'm confused', I was like 'You can trust me', then he said 'I know but I can't trust the others', to which the others came over and the convo died. He was drunk at this point and later that night we shared a quilt and got very close, admittedly I was the one getting closer to him and putting my head on him, but he didn't make any effort to move away. Its common knowledge in our friendship group he really likes this girl, so for him to say that confused me. He has said other things to me like 'You're the only one I can open to' etc etc
Other things are like, he has had one girlfriend and always says things like 'guys are more fun to talk about'. He kisses me a lot on the cheek when he gets drunk and says 'There is more chance of me getting into a relationship with a guy than there is a girl', because he 'sucks with girls'. I've also heard a story of where he got off with a guy when he was drunk.
So many signs and collectively its given me hope. But deep down, I really do think he is straight though, its just my gut feeling.
Its really, really, tormenting me. I seriously like him and I hate myself for it. Its getting to that point where I'm starting to get down if he hasn't texted me or if he starts talking about girls.
Put the internet to work for you.
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