Thought we had something real....then she dumped me by text!

My girlfriend broke up with me via text 3 days ago. We had only been dating for 3 months but it was a fast, hot, exiting and deeply heartfelt 3 months. Within the first month she was telling me that she never met anyone like me before and she never had feelings like this before. She told me that every time I kiss her, it's like having the best first kiss of her life. She told me that she knew it was crazy because it was so new, but that she was confident that she had completely fallen in love with me. She constantly said beautiful things to me about her feelings for me and she made me feel like I was the best thing to ever come into her life. She is one of the warmest, sweetest, most caring people I have ever met. I have been going through a divorce for 2 years and although I've dated during that time, I haven't felt that kind of closeness to a women in a very long time. I liked it. Naturally I was very vulnerable and I asked her to be very careful with my feelings because it would be difficult for me to trust again. She promised she would so I let go and allowed myself to fall for her. Things were great. I was the happiest I have been in years and she said she felt the same way. We talked a lot about our feelings and we had such a natural connection that neither of us could believe it was happening. But it was….and we both admitted it. I've never had anyone say such beautiful things to me and shared some of the most romantic and beautiful times together. She told me that every time she talks to me she smiles the entire time and that I simply make her happy. We also were living a pretty fast, irresponsible and impulsive lifestyle however. She would come over at midnight when she got out of work and we would stay up together til dawn hanging out even though I had to work the next day. On a whim, she would get a baby sitter to sit with her kids just so she could come over because she claimed she couldn't get enough of me. Last Saturday she called out of work just so she could spend the day with me. We were so happy. Then on Saturday nite I was charged with a DUI.:( I never had anything like that happen to me before and she had to witness the whole thing. Then out of the blue on Sunday, she sent me a text saying that she can't do this anymore. She said she has been acting way to irresponsibly and impulsive and she needed to get her life back on track for her 2 kids. She said that she didnt give herself enough time to be alone after her last relationship ended before she jumped into something so serious with me. She said she was sorry but that she just couldn't do this right now. All of this was via text. I was crushed and did not respond well to it. I texted and called her many times asking her what I did wrong and asking her to call me to talk about it. She didn't respond which made me text and call more unfortunately. I asked her how she could throw something so good away and how she could do it via text. She replied that all my texting were smothering, they weren't helping and that she needed time to process everything. Then she texted that she already explained what happened and that she was sorry that her explanation wasn't good enough and that it wasn't going to change. The next morning I called her early in the morning and she finally picked up. I asked her if she meant all of the beautiful things she said to me and she replied that of course she did. Then she had to go to take care of her kids. I texted her after work that day and asked that she call me that night. She agreed to. Then around 10:00 she texted to say that she was exhausted and that she wouldn't be calling me. Again I did not respond well and I sent more texts. The next morning she texted me that this was ridiculous and that she no longer wanted to call me. She said that she couldn't help it if she was tired and that I never gave her the space she asked for to process. She was right ofcourse, but i felt she was wrong to breakup by text. She said that she was just done and that the reasons didn't matter. Then she said that my soon to be Ex was right and that I was too intense, which is what my soon to be Ex often accused me of being. I know I screwed up hounding her, but it's something I can't control very well. I suffer from obsessive behavior/thoughts and OCD and was in treatment for it for 2 year when I got separated. I thought I had a grip on it but when I needed to use the distracting and coping skills that I had learned …..I had completely forgot about them and I drove her nuts. I know full well that I should have just left her alone and wait for her to contact me. What's killing me is why did she break up with me in the first place, so quickly? And why by text? And not call me? I'm heartbroken. I just want answers but I don't think I'll get one. The divorce has been very hard for me emotionally but I had finally let my guard down and allowed someone in. Then this happens. It's not just losing her that hurts so much, it's the idea that I was finally happy again, with another woman. It was the first truely positive things since my marriage fell appart. I let my guard down, let someone in and got hurt. I'm having a hard time sleeping, I obsess over her all the time. Am I bi-polar? Funny thing is that I did exactly the same thing to my wife which contributed to the divorce. As a last gesture, I emailed her explaining my condition and apologized for my behavior. I told her that what triggered me was not having a real answer to why she broke up with me so abruptly. I briefly touched on some of the good times and told her I would be dropping off her stuff. Finally I assured her I wouldn't bother her anymore and I wished that she would find the happiness she was looking for and said good bye. I've since deleted all phone and computer contacts of her so I'm not able to call or text or email here anymore. I'm trying the "No Contact" rule. I'm dropping off her stuff to her cousins house later today. Is it ok to put a small note with her stuff that simply says "I Miss You?" or have I already spoken my piece and I should just live it lone. Not hearing from her is killing me. How long do I give the No Contact rule before I try to contact her again? She means the world to me and I don't want to lose her. I'm meeting with my therapist tomorrow morning to talk. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

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