Im 37/M, wife is 41, married for 8.5 years. Dated for 3 months before that. Two daughters, ages 8 and 5.
On our honeymoon I heard that little voice that said "this isn't right, you don't know her" but I chalked it up to nerves and stress.
We were married it seems as it was the "next step" to take, and I believed then and now that she is a great person.
I love her but aren't "in love" with her,.
We practically live seperate lives, with me mostly spending time alone on the weekends and her spending with her large family. ( I should mention she comes from a large Hispanic family and I'm white) I will sometimes go along once in awhile, more often than not I want to relax on the weekends. She tells them most of our problems and they can be cold with me.
We have seperate accounts which I HATE. She refuses to combine accounts, says she's broke but then comes home with $250 of groceries.
She says she loves me but I don't believe it snd she doesn't show it unless she wants something.
She has offered to file for divorce many times but I always beg her no, due to my fear of money problems, visitation and shame.
We seperated for two weeks this summer at her insistence for many reasons (no cheating). I didn't miss her, but it was HELL being away from my girls so I came home on a day off while she was at work. She was happy to see me but it was shortlived
Counseling didn't help, I can't make myself feel something.
I often daydream about being with another woman, but the bottom line is I'm afraid of the effects on my kids and not always being able to see them.
I'm at the end of my rope. I'm terrified of spending the rest of my life like this! I'm only 37...
On our honeymoon I heard that little voice that said "this isn't right, you don't know her" but I chalked it up to nerves and stress.
We were married it seems as it was the "next step" to take, and I believed then and now that she is a great person.
I love her but aren't "in love" with her,.
We practically live seperate lives, with me mostly spending time alone on the weekends and her spending with her large family. ( I should mention she comes from a large Hispanic family and I'm white) I will sometimes go along once in awhile, more often than not I want to relax on the weekends. She tells them most of our problems and they can be cold with me.
We have seperate accounts which I HATE. She refuses to combine accounts, says she's broke but then comes home with $250 of groceries.
She says she loves me but I don't believe it snd she doesn't show it unless she wants something.
She has offered to file for divorce many times but I always beg her no, due to my fear of money problems, visitation and shame.
We seperated for two weeks this summer at her insistence for many reasons (no cheating). I didn't miss her, but it was HELL being away from my girls so I came home on a day off while she was at work. She was happy to see me but it was shortlived
Counseling didn't help, I can't make myself feel something.
I often daydream about being with another woman, but the bottom line is I'm afraid of the effects on my kids and not always being able to see them.
I'm at the end of my rope. I'm terrified of spending the rest of my life like this! I'm only 37...
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