So I've suffered from depression, anxiety, and somatization for about 5 years now. It's really only gotten worse as it's gone on.
Now, I'm married and our relationship is really struggling. We've only been married for about six months, but we're constantly fighting.
I worry that our issues are really just my issues and that it's me that has the problem. When I get very depressed, I feel angry and resentful towards my husband. I feel like everything is his fault, and I just start to hate him.
I know, deep down, that I don't hate him, that I love him very much, but when I'm so deep in my depression, I feel as though I cannot admit that anything is my fault, that I've done anything wrong. I don't know how to stop saying such scathing, hurtful things, things that I don't mean at all. I feel I'm just driving a huge wedge between us.
Before you suggest it, yes I've had therapy/ counseling. Yes, I'm on medications. Things typically only get this bad when I run out of my medications, which has happened a few times. I'm usually very good at taking them, but our awful healthcare system makes it necessary for a small miracle to occur for me to get a new prescription.
Anyway. I'm worried. I love my husband, but I keep starting fights and getting angry for no reason. I feel like I have no control over my emotions. Help!
Now, I'm married and our relationship is really struggling. We've only been married for about six months, but we're constantly fighting.
I worry that our issues are really just my issues and that it's me that has the problem. When I get very depressed, I feel angry and resentful towards my husband. I feel like everything is his fault, and I just start to hate him.
I know, deep down, that I don't hate him, that I love him very much, but when I'm so deep in my depression, I feel as though I cannot admit that anything is my fault, that I've done anything wrong. I don't know how to stop saying such scathing, hurtful things, things that I don't mean at all. I feel I'm just driving a huge wedge between us.
Before you suggest it, yes I've had therapy/ counseling. Yes, I'm on medications. Things typically only get this bad when I run out of my medications, which has happened a few times. I'm usually very good at taking them, but our awful healthcare system makes it necessary for a small miracle to occur for me to get a new prescription.
Anyway. I'm worried. I love my husband, but I keep starting fights and getting angry for no reason. I feel like I have no control over my emotions. Help!
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