My university exams have commenced and I am not at all ready since I'm finding it hard to come to terms with the fact his thoughts encompassed me all-year-around but he dumped me without having seen me for the passed year. I still love him and I hope he's well and happy.
Long story short, I just wish he would see me at least once and if only I could contact him but I'm scared in-case it aggravates him.
I've already failed one crucial exam which I can't get another shot at and that was on the day he made me die in sorrowful fear.
It hurt loving him but at the same time it's hard to let go because my love for him is deeper than it'll ever get which to me dismay he never understood.
If he;s reading this I hope he's happy and the lucky woman in his life not only gives him everything that i couldn't but every desire that is yet oblivious to him.
And I don't want attention just I'm very depressed and I can't talk to anyone else in regards to this matter.
I have learnt some things from him and he would say something along the lines of I ought not to depress over things that won't benefit MY future and hence that renders my exams the top priority.
I don't even have any close friends since at the start of the year I secluded myself and found solace in mere thoughts of my ex and how I want him to be with me. It seems petty but one can you do....
I do try my best to revise but then his thoughts come barging into me and i just break.
Put the internet to work for you.
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