Hi everyone,
I have a quite complicated marriage. I married my husband not because I am inlove with him. I married him because he was committing suicide if i wouldn't marry him. We started as friends. He had serious issues in depression. He's been taking therapies and medication for 3 years when we met. I became close to him. I became his shouder to lean on and his audience with all the drama of his self-pity. He eventually fell in love with me but I wasn't in love with him so I rejected his proposal. He attempted suicide and everything just went wrong. I could not bear in my conscience if anything happened to him that day so I accepted his proposal. I learned to love him but I am not really in love with him. He dramatically changed. All his depressions are gone and I was glad that I helped him. Everyone in his family loves me for he became a different person than he used to be. I didn't believe in marriage but i married him anyways for i thought i am saving someone's life. we are married for 2 and a half years and we have huge fights. We have no children. He is so selfish and self centered. He doesn't have a job. I am the only one working and paying the bills. Not to mention the household chores. I am also not attracted him so i can't give him sex. Mostly I am only pretending. In the middle of our dying marriage my bestfriend from long time ago confessed his love for me. He kept his feelings for me for 16 years. He is still single and couldn't keep his feelings anymore. He was the guy I fell in love with and is still the one. Knowing all these I am in big trouble. I trapped myself in a very complicated position. I am afraid that my husband will threaten his life again and i don't want to take the blame.
I am considering divorce. Any advice?
I have a quite complicated marriage. I married my husband not because I am inlove with him. I married him because he was committing suicide if i wouldn't marry him. We started as friends. He had serious issues in depression. He's been taking therapies and medication for 3 years when we met. I became close to him. I became his shouder to lean on and his audience with all the drama of his self-pity. He eventually fell in love with me but I wasn't in love with him so I rejected his proposal. He attempted suicide and everything just went wrong. I could not bear in my conscience if anything happened to him that day so I accepted his proposal. I learned to love him but I am not really in love with him. He dramatically changed. All his depressions are gone and I was glad that I helped him. Everyone in his family loves me for he became a different person than he used to be. I didn't believe in marriage but i married him anyways for i thought i am saving someone's life. we are married for 2 and a half years and we have huge fights. We have no children. He is so selfish and self centered. He doesn't have a job. I am the only one working and paying the bills. Not to mention the household chores. I am also not attracted him so i can't give him sex. Mostly I am only pretending. In the middle of our dying marriage my bestfriend from long time ago confessed his love for me. He kept his feelings for me for 16 years. He is still single and couldn't keep his feelings anymore. He was the guy I fell in love with and is still the one. Knowing all these I am in big trouble. I trapped myself in a very complicated position. I am afraid that my husband will threaten his life again and i don't want to take the blame.
I am considering divorce. Any advice?
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