I came close to having an affair, and I need to figure out why this happened in my perfect marriage.
Hubby and I are 34. We have been married 10 years, two beautiful daughters and a nice house, etc. I am a stay at home mom. I really wouldn't have it any other way. Hub is my best friend, and a wonderful husband.
However, like many marriages, it's gotten stale romantically. I find it difficult to kiss him. We have sex, that's not a problem. I just find myself desiring other men. I've had opportunities to cheat several times, with very desirable and wealthy men, but never have.
There is a guy I've talked to on the internet for three years. Lately I've been thinking about him a lot in a sexual way. The feeling is so good, and my husband will never turn me on in that way.
The other night, I got drunk, and I told him I wanted to have an affair with him. He said he wanted to as well. We talked about him coming to visit me. The next morning I woke up and was horrified at what I'd said, and immediately told him I had a reality check and that no, I could not do that.
Then, maybe stupidly, I told my husband about this whole thing. He was a little surprised and saddened but he took it well. We decided we'd really work at making this marriage affair proof.
I have, in the past, told my husband that I was bored and unsatisfied. I think now he takes the issue seriously, so I am glad I told him.
What I need to know is, why am I craving other men, when my marriage is as fine as it can be? I still want to have an affair. It's all I think about. But I cannot and will not do it. This is very hard for me. I'm incredibly frustrated and find it hard to think of just being with hub sexually for the rest of my life.
Hubby and I are 34. We have been married 10 years, two beautiful daughters and a nice house, etc. I am a stay at home mom. I really wouldn't have it any other way. Hub is my best friend, and a wonderful husband.
However, like many marriages, it's gotten stale romantically. I find it difficult to kiss him. We have sex, that's not a problem. I just find myself desiring other men. I've had opportunities to cheat several times, with very desirable and wealthy men, but never have.
There is a guy I've talked to on the internet for three years. Lately I've been thinking about him a lot in a sexual way. The feeling is so good, and my husband will never turn me on in that way.
The other night, I got drunk, and I told him I wanted to have an affair with him. He said he wanted to as well. We talked about him coming to visit me. The next morning I woke up and was horrified at what I'd said, and immediately told him I had a reality check and that no, I could not do that.
Then, maybe stupidly, I told my husband about this whole thing. He was a little surprised and saddened but he took it well. We decided we'd really work at making this marriage affair proof.
I have, in the past, told my husband that I was bored and unsatisfied. I think now he takes the issue seriously, so I am glad I told him.
What I need to know is, why am I craving other men, when my marriage is as fine as it can be? I still want to have an affair. It's all I think about. But I cannot and will not do it. This is very hard for me. I'm incredibly frustrated and find it hard to think of just being with hub sexually for the rest of my life.
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