I've been at Uni since September, and for approximately the last 5 months I have been getting with one of my flat mates on a night out. The same thing happens every time, as we get progressively more drunk we become more confident and eventually end up kissing and then sharing a bed (although we've never had sex, not even anything remotely sexual other than kiss).
At first I thought it was just a drunken thing and it would sort itself out, but it's happened for so long now that it's starting to get silly. It wouldn't be so bad if we talked in the day, but she's so shy in-front of me when sober that it's impossible to make any progress. I will admit to being a little more shy around her as well but it's at the stage now where I feel like I can't get with other people when I'm out, almost as if I'm in a relationship, even though I'm not..
The other week I kissed a couple of girls on a nigh out, she wasn't there but another flat mate was and told her about it. When we were both next out together she told how it hurt her a little bit but generally seemed OK about it.
Then I tried my hardest to talk to her about the whole situaiton... I asked her if she liked me more than just a drunken kiss... but she's SO hard to get anything out of, I try and talk but she just shrugs and gives one word answers... to the point where I dunno if she does, even though all the signs are there and all my flat mates have said the same thing.
She hasn't got with a single guy since she's been here, I've got with roughly 10 girls but only slept with 3, all of which she knows about, but not slept with anyone since I've got with her
We agreed to talk about it when sober and have a chat but the longer it's gone on I just find it so difficult to make the first move.
At first I didn't have feelings for her but I think I do now, I'm still unsure because it's so awkward in the day time that I struggle to see how it will progress.
I know the obvious answer is to talk whilst sober but it's just so damn difficult... maybe I need to man up and sort the situation out but I've never had a girlfriend before and neither has she (a boyfriend that is). I just wish she would make more of an effort on her behalf
Sorry for the long post... just needed to get it out there
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