The only people I could fully trust 100% are my family and about 2 of my friends. I've got about 7 friends in total, and one of them I haven't seen in 1.5 years. I live in another country and she lives with her parents, but every time I go back (just for weekends usually) I ask her to meet but she's always got 'family stuff'. She cannot excuse herself once when I'm in another country. I haven't brought it up with her because she's very sensitive, and if we talk on the internet I'll be friendly with her, but other than that, I've given up on her.
My boyfriend of nearly 3 years has said stuff like he'd leave me for someone if someone 'better for him' came along, 'more attracted, and more connected'. How that's supposed to make me trust him I don't know. I had thoughts of marrying him and settling down together, and he sees me as a ****ing pass-time. I'm with him now, but i've conditioned myself to not care as much and not make him my everything, so that when he leaves me I won't be as hurt.
I have friends who just randomly stop making an effort with me, stop replying etc. even though I've not said a single bad thing or possibly done anything to hurt them. I literally have 1 or 2 friends I could really rely on, and that's enough for me. I don't trust anyone anymore. I just rely on myself and spend a lot of time alone. People are just out for themselves.
Does anyone else have this view or am I being too cynical? I'm just sick of not being treated in the way that I treat them.
Put the internet to work for you.
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