I made a post anonymously but hey I can't wait for it to be approved. I need advice quick.
I told a friend to die because I was jealous she was talking to a guy, she slapped me,I said if she slapped me again I''l go for her throat. (by text after i went home, was ridiculously drunk)
Also ruined her relationship with her best friend by telling her friend all the stuff about her she told me in secret.
I want your honest opinion. Do you think I can rectify this situation? I've thought about nothing else for the past few days. I feel sick to my stomach.
What I said was disgusting. I would never EVER physically assault her. I would do anything for her.
I've been having really dark thoughts. I don't think I can live with myself If this goes on. She hasn't replied to my last text I sent lunchtime yesterday and I feel sick at the sight of losing her as a friend.
Before you all say I know what I said was disgusting. I must come across as a coward, manipulative, cunning, aggressive, violent uncontrollable ar*ehole.
I feel really emotional about this. I've never done anything like it before. I need to know what to do next. I want to give her space but I can't continue like this, I can't distract myself.
I deserve about 50 slaps or more for what I've done. I am a horrible worthless piece of sh*t for what I sent her, it's starting to become obvious to those around me that I'm depressed about something. 2 full days now I can barely hold a conversation, can't smile, can't eat, can't sleep.
I just want contact with her, I want to tell her how much of a c*nt I am for saying those things.
I know you all must think I'm a scumbag for sending those texts (I feel like one) but I'm never normally like this.
I have this sick, sinking feeling in my stomach everytime I think about it (which is pretty much all day).. why do I feel like this? What do I do?
Put the internet to work for you.
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