So, yeah, I'm 21 and recently met this guy who's in his mid-thirties through a friend of mine at work. I really liked him (though we're just acquaintances), but I just heard my friend mention his girlfriend in conversation with someone else. This always, ALWAYS happens to me - the guys I like always end up already taken or besotted with someone else :( I feel sick to my stomach and so embarrassed too, I'm mad at myself for falling for him too quickly.
I'm literally so gutted. I just moved to London, so maybe my situation will improve and I'll meet new guys, but I didn't have any friends here before I moved and right now he's the only one I knew here whom I seriously liked. I'm quite physically attractive, very friendly and do get guys hitting on me even when I'm just walking around doing my thing, but I've never once even had a serious boyfriend or been on a date as I've had family problems in the past I needed to deal with. I'm tired of being single though...
Fortunately, I never made a move on him, but last time we talked I think it showed - I didn't explicitly hit on him, but was really cheerful and bubbly and I think he spotted something because he suddenly became very cold. I'm worried that he's just looking down on me now as though I like him he can be very judgmental and rational and snarky. I liked him because he was smart and competent, now I hate myself for doing so.
I feel so stupid for ever liking him and am literally just crying my eyes out for being so stupid yet AGAIN :S I don't think (depending on a project at work) I ever have to see or talk to him again if I don't want to, but we are both Londoners so I might run into him without expecting it. We have completely different hangouts though fortunately.
Please advise me TSR :( My closest friends are on holiday right now and it's hard to get in touch. I feel so lonely here in my flat in London. Argh.
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