Basically I've ended up getting drunk 4/5 of the nights I've been at freshers week and everytime it's basically just resulted in me doing something stupid.
Day 1: Got drunk during pre drinks.
Day 2: Threw up on our fridge as a result of playing a drinking game with vodka. By myself. Because I came in at half 10 and felt boring.
Day 3: Was singing and baking cupcakes at half 12 (to be fair, this was when I thought no one was in and only one of them ended up coming in before I stopped).
Day 4: The one night I was sober.
Day 5: Watched 2 housemates and their friend play a card game, all while chatting somewhat annoying crap.
This has to stop; I've never been a big drinker. This is the most I've drunk all my damn life. And I really hate it. I feel like hell, my housemates find me irritating (they try and be nice but I know they do; I also admitting to talking about them on the phone to another friend and that I was glad they didn't hear, despite what I was saying not being that bad) and I haven't even been able to make other friends for some reason. Ive hung out with a friend from secondary and her friends but other than that this week is just making me sad. Worst of all, I know it's my fault and I really just hate myself for it. I don't know what to do and would even consider commuting at this point. What the hell am I meant to do? I've tried apologizing but they've just said don't worry but I know its just their way of saying "Whatever, that's just the person you are; **** off asking if we're mad."
TLDR: Got overly drunk the first 5 days of freshers week, pretty sure my housemates don't like me and have been unable to make other friends. Yes, I'm well aware it's my fault.
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