Feeling anxious and tired today.
Part of it is my Nyquil hangover... I caught that nasty virus that causes one side of your glands to swell and then a corresponding ear ache. I didn't sleep very well Monday night due to the pain, but I was ready for it last night. Didn't even hit the gym after work, which is weird for me. But I had to hit that virus hard :rolleyes:
But more than that I just feel like I have to tell my X it's over. We're not going to "try" to get back together. If he cannot emotionally fulfill me now, then he never will. Not even two days after having the talk about trying to work it out did he go back to his old tactics (in another thread). He's continued to be too busy for me all week, and you know what...f*ck it. It's not like he's an important business man...he's a maintenance guy for God's sakes!! A glorified freaking janitor. *done* I just got a raise...I'm now just under the VP of the company....I'm moving up in my career and the world is my oyster. Watch my *ss walk away as I now get to make choices for myself.
The money is not going to keep give me stress anymore. I just wanted to be fair, but he's making it hard for me because he doesn't realllllly want to keep up his end. He kept over half of the photography equipment and was being super selfish with that, even though my income paid for at least half of it. I didn't want to fight over it. Now he's supposed to be making payments for his half of our debt (which honestly is not a whole lot, but it's OURs...why should I be the only one paying?). I almost want to get a lawyer to deal with this, but it almost wouldn't be worth it considering the amount of $$, but just to make him man-up could be fun to see.
Ugh I'm just tired and anxious...and I want to go box or something....and I don't know how to box.....
Obviously I still care....or I wouldn't be feeling this way. I keep trying to figure out why I'm anxious...I really am just anxious for him to keep up his end of the agreement....not so much about losing him. Is that bad?
Should I just not care of he pays? Or should I keep texting and reminding him and just hope he does? I'm confused today.
Part of it is my Nyquil hangover... I caught that nasty virus that causes one side of your glands to swell and then a corresponding ear ache. I didn't sleep very well Monday night due to the pain, but I was ready for it last night. Didn't even hit the gym after work, which is weird for me. But I had to hit that virus hard :rolleyes:
But more than that I just feel like I have to tell my X it's over. We're not going to "try" to get back together. If he cannot emotionally fulfill me now, then he never will. Not even two days after having the talk about trying to work it out did he go back to his old tactics (in another thread). He's continued to be too busy for me all week, and you know what...f*ck it. It's not like he's an important business man...he's a maintenance guy for God's sakes!! A glorified freaking janitor. *done* I just got a raise...I'm now just under the VP of the company....I'm moving up in my career and the world is my oyster. Watch my *ss walk away as I now get to make choices for myself.
The money is not going to keep give me stress anymore. I just wanted to be fair, but he's making it hard for me because he doesn't realllllly want to keep up his end. He kept over half of the photography equipment and was being super selfish with that, even though my income paid for at least half of it. I didn't want to fight over it. Now he's supposed to be making payments for his half of our debt (which honestly is not a whole lot, but it's OURs...why should I be the only one paying?). I almost want to get a lawyer to deal with this, but it almost wouldn't be worth it considering the amount of $$, but just to make him man-up could be fun to see.
Ugh I'm just tired and anxious...and I want to go box or something....and I don't know how to box.....
Obviously I still care....or I wouldn't be feeling this way. I keep trying to figure out why I'm anxious...I really am just anxious for him to keep up his end of the agreement....not so much about losing him. Is that bad?
Should I just not care of he pays? Or should I keep texting and reminding him and just hope he does? I'm confused today.
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