Hi all,
Basically I need some advice on how to stop being a crazy bitch. I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years in July last year. We both had our faults but I can accept that I became well and truly crazy - I was jealous and possessive and generally a bit of a lunatic. I thought it was this particular relationship that made me obsessive because it was my first love blah blah blah
Anyway in October I met someone. It was never meant to be serious because i'm out of the country and I'm going home in june and he's not. Anyway then it all got a bit more serious and the situation started to get me down because I was starting to get attached and I knew I was leaving. I don't actually see a long term future with this guy though tbh. But still I am becoming crazy. I realised about two weeks ago that he didn't realise I was leaving so I told him. He said he wanted to keep seeing each other but since then he's been distant. I don't really blame him for this but since then I have turned into a complete lunatic again. He's not really been messaging me so I have been texting him pretty much every day. At the weekend I got drunk and basically showed up outside his flat and demanded to be let in. The tonight he made it clear that he was tired and wasn't finishing work late. I was hinting that I wanted to go see him but then he stopped replying. So then I text him aga in like a crazy desperate person and then he just ignored me. I look so desperate now, I hate it. Before he was super into me and serious and I hate that its me chasing him round now. I don't know where I stand. I've literally been crying every night and I don't even know why I care so much.
But long story short, I am worried that I am incapable of having a normal, healthy relationships seeing as the two I've attempted so far have turned into absolute **** shows. I've been single for a culmulative total of 6 months since turning 18 which I'm fairly sure is not healthy but I hate hate hate being alone. I hate the idea of being single. All I can think about is where I'm going to find my next bf when I go back to England. Clearly I have issues but I have no idea how to solve them. Help me :E
Basically I need some advice on how to stop being a crazy bitch. I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years in July last year. We both had our faults but I can accept that I became well and truly crazy - I was jealous and possessive and generally a bit of a lunatic. I thought it was this particular relationship that made me obsessive because it was my first love blah blah blah
Anyway in October I met someone. It was never meant to be serious because i'm out of the country and I'm going home in june and he's not. Anyway then it all got a bit more serious and the situation started to get me down because I was starting to get attached and I knew I was leaving. I don't actually see a long term future with this guy though tbh. But still I am becoming crazy. I realised about two weeks ago that he didn't realise I was leaving so I told him. He said he wanted to keep seeing each other but since then he's been distant. I don't really blame him for this but since then I have turned into a complete lunatic again. He's not really been messaging me so I have been texting him pretty much every day. At the weekend I got drunk and basically showed up outside his flat and demanded to be let in. The tonight he made it clear that he was tired and wasn't finishing work late. I was hinting that I wanted to go see him but then he stopped replying. So then I text him aga in like a crazy desperate person and then he just ignored me. I look so desperate now, I hate it. Before he was super into me and serious and I hate that its me chasing him round now. I don't know where I stand. I've literally been crying every night and I don't even know why I care so much.
But long story short, I am worried that I am incapable of having a normal, healthy relationships seeing as the two I've attempted so far have turned into absolute **** shows. I've been single for a culmulative total of 6 months since turning 18 which I'm fairly sure is not healthy but I hate hate hate being alone. I hate the idea of being single. All I can think about is where I'm going to find my next bf when I go back to England. Clearly I have issues but I have no idea how to solve them. Help me :E
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