I have posted in the sex in marriage and coping with infidelity forums but I'm finding I need help with another issue
I am incredibly ashamed/ embarrassed of my divorce (especially at my age-late 20s). My husband wanted the divorce and I am the one who ultimately filed. I am embarrassed to only have been married for such a short time and of how my husband treated me (which I never told anyone about).
I am ashamed that my job doesn't pay enough that I can stay in this area near friends and that I need to move in with my family (not the most supportive people).
I am ashamed that my husband slandered me to most of our mutual friends and since I did not keep in touch with many people from my hometown I will be alone(which I know is my own fault but I am upset that I did not keep in touch- I have tried reconnecting on fb and other social media and so far I haven't had any luck :/). I am embarrassed because I am scared of running into his friends there and that I will have no friends in the area. I am ashamed that I feel resentment towards my stbx for having friends and family support.
I am supposed to see my extended family about a month after I return (and from what I've been told theyre mostly supportive) but I am terrified to see them and am so embarrassed about what happened (they only know that he made bad decisions and I am leaving- I have no idea how to handle the "what happened?", "how are you?", "I'm sorry") and I am the only one in my family that has ever been divorced which causes me to feel even more ashamed.
I am embarrassed that I will not have a job or a source of income so I will be stuck in my family's home with no way of meeting people. I am also incredibly nervous to try and make friends.
I am embarrassed that so many people that have found out that I am divorcing feel that I "married too young" and did not treat marriage with respect or try hard enough (I am devastated my marriage is ending like this and wanted it to work so much)
I am embarrassed that I will never really know the full details of what happened with my husband
I do not know how to change my way of thinking on this. It is causing me to have so much stress and anxiety. I can barely get out of bed and have no appetite. I have seen a counselor who feels that I will just need to 'stay positive' and hopefully in a couple months things will improve. I also saw my doctor and while he is willing to prescribe anxiety meds and/or antidepressants he feels that it would just mask my feelings and prolong my issues/grief.
I am incredibly ashamed/ embarrassed of my divorce (especially at my age-late 20s). My husband wanted the divorce and I am the one who ultimately filed. I am embarrassed to only have been married for such a short time and of how my husband treated me (which I never told anyone about).
I am ashamed that my job doesn't pay enough that I can stay in this area near friends and that I need to move in with my family (not the most supportive people).
I am ashamed that my husband slandered me to most of our mutual friends and since I did not keep in touch with many people from my hometown I will be alone(which I know is my own fault but I am upset that I did not keep in touch- I have tried reconnecting on fb and other social media and so far I haven't had any luck :/). I am embarrassed because I am scared of running into his friends there and that I will have no friends in the area. I am ashamed that I feel resentment towards my stbx for having friends and family support.
I am supposed to see my extended family about a month after I return (and from what I've been told theyre mostly supportive) but I am terrified to see them and am so embarrassed about what happened (they only know that he made bad decisions and I am leaving- I have no idea how to handle the "what happened?", "how are you?", "I'm sorry") and I am the only one in my family that has ever been divorced which causes me to feel even more ashamed.
I am embarrassed that I will not have a job or a source of income so I will be stuck in my family's home with no way of meeting people. I am also incredibly nervous to try and make friends.
I am embarrassed that so many people that have found out that I am divorcing feel that I "married too young" and did not treat marriage with respect or try hard enough (I am devastated my marriage is ending like this and wanted it to work so much)
I am embarrassed that I will never really know the full details of what happened with my husband
I do not know how to change my way of thinking on this. It is causing me to have so much stress and anxiety. I can barely get out of bed and have no appetite. I have seen a counselor who feels that I will just need to 'stay positive' and hopefully in a couple months things will improve. I also saw my doctor and while he is willing to prescribe anxiety meds and/or antidepressants he feels that it would just mask my feelings and prolong my issues/grief.
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