We've been long distance for coming up 2 years now. I'm at uni and he's not. He has no ambitions whatsoever yet I want to make something of myself. On paper, we're so incompatible its a wonder we ever got together- yet somehow, I love him.
just don't know if I can do it any more. The thought of losing him is so so painful yet at the same time I just want to be free. He is dragging me down, he doesn't make me feel like I can fly any more. He doesn't make me feel like I can go anywhere and do things with my life. He's stuck in his boring, repetitive ways and I don't want to get stuck like that. Yet he keeps me safe and warm and happy. I feel secure when i'm with him and security is something important to me. He's a fantastic person, a real gem. Unlike so many guys, he'd never cheat or lie or hurt me. He'd do anything for me and he's said so himself. I said the same thing until recently. Something has changed.
He's the only person I've ever been with, the only one I've ever truly loved- something so strong yet so weak. We're weak, we're divided and fractured by the distance and our differences. And we're only growing more and more different. I do not know what to do. It hurts so much, i'd be devastated without him and I know he'd be destroyed too. I want to do the right thing but my head and heart are inter-mingling and neither knows whats right. Please please can someone help me!?!
just don't know if I can do it any more. The thought of losing him is so so painful yet at the same time I just want to be free. He is dragging me down, he doesn't make me feel like I can fly any more. He doesn't make me feel like I can go anywhere and do things with my life. He's stuck in his boring, repetitive ways and I don't want to get stuck like that. Yet he keeps me safe and warm and happy. I feel secure when i'm with him and security is something important to me. He's a fantastic person, a real gem. Unlike so many guys, he'd never cheat or lie or hurt me. He'd do anything for me and he's said so himself. I said the same thing until recently. Something has changed.
He's the only person I've ever been with, the only one I've ever truly loved- something so strong yet so weak. We're weak, we're divided and fractured by the distance and our differences. And we're only growing more and more different. I do not know what to do. It hurts so much, i'd be devastated without him and I know he'd be destroyed too. I want to do the right thing but my head and heart are inter-mingling and neither knows whats right. Please please can someone help me!?!
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