I think I'm addicted to Internet relationships

I've been married for 5 years since I was 19 years old and I have two kids with my husband. My marriage is a very happy one, neither of us has ever been unfaithful and we have a very loving relationship. Recently we went through a very hard time, because of me. To make an extremely long story short, I was romantically emailing with someone I met on playstation network playing call of duty, via headset on the game. At first it was just a friendship with this person like any other person I had met and then after a couple months some flirting started to happen and out of no where an online relationship formed. I've never been this type of person to speak to someone besides my husband. This guy knew I was married with kids but neither of us talked really about that. There was never any sexual talk also! All I can think of is that the game was a way for me to disconnect from real life and when I was playing it I was a different person. My husband found out and we had a big big fight, it was bad. He a actually forgave me and we are moving on. We are both willing to work on it and let time pass. I love my husband and I don't want to lose my family. But why does it feel hard to not come in contact with this person again? I'm trying to keep busy, and I don't think I really care for that other person, I just think I crave the attention. I don't know. My family and the love I have for my husband is not worth this guy or any other guy. I am a a actually really happy with my marriage. So why did all this happen? I'm just looking for some insight. Thanks!!

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