Resurfaced...

So some may remember me, I'm going to try and make this short.. Back story (hubs HD, me LD two kids 20 months apart) Sex once a week too him was not enough, pressure from him made me want him less, sometimes we went two weeks. This went on for 5 years. Last year, Jan we started rekindling our emotional intimacy, and sexual intimacy quickly followed... we worked hard at it, me especially with the sex thing, started giving him bjs, etc... all I requested of him, was to make time for me, be a bit more romantic, send me a random text, email whatever... well it lasted for a bit (from him) very quickly wore off... I continued with sexual escapades, we made up games, etc. Over the last two months things have gone south again... The last time he did anything romantic for me was July my birthday last year. Although we did have a good time on our anniversary. He even forgot mothers day this year and just ran out after church and got me a card from him and the kids. He did say a couple weeks ago he wants me to want him like I did when we first start ed working on all of this... to be frank, I want to as well, but it just seems forced at this point. I offer myself freely for the most part, and engage actively... don't always get off because I feel like it's rushed. (He has always had an issue with pre-ejac: don't see that changing, we've been married 10 years, and even on days when we have sex more than once, he has this issue) it's all good, except when he comes to me and does something to signal he wants sex, grabs my tit, my ass says something, and he is ready to go in ten seconds flat, while it seems to take me longer to get going because he has done nothing to make me desire him in the meantime. I have to in my head get myself thinking of sex, do exercises, etc, if I know the time is coming and I want to please him, but get off myself too. I'm confused about his lack of emotional intimacy with me, I have brought it up, suggested things, he usually shoots them down. Althougth with the sex games, I have played along.... I am at a loss here, I don't want to talk about it with him anymore. Whenever I bring something up, he says he feels like we are starting all over. I do not. I feel like we have made massive progress with some things... but our intimacy suffers. And then I don't want to turn him down, so like the other day, he was in the mood, fresh from the shower, and I said ok and locked the bedroom door, but the kids got into a fight and they were hollaring my name.... and then he was disappointed I didn't get off, but sat there and made comments about how awesome it was (totally confused me).... I feel like at this point we are awesome life partners, great coparents etc, but that when it comes to being together "in love" whatever you want to call it, we keep missing something. At the same time, I feel like he doesn't give any effort, he thinks that watching tv together is quality time, and I then sometimes wonder (I know this is cliche but I am sure there are others who feel the same) he just comes to me when he needs to get off, or vise versa, it's just quick sex, we've lost the love making part, because in between there is no love given. As I write this, I think maybe I could show more affection, but I almost feel like there is no point because he doesn't get the difference between showing love and making love. (If that makes sense). Are my methods wrong? Is my line of thinking wrong? I am a religious person and do not plan on getting divorced, I would much rather fix this, considering we do not have really any other issues (minor money problems, kids disagreements, normal stuff). Any advice for us?:scratchhead:

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