Grrr... frustrated with hubby again

Just venting here.... Wed night... hubby goes to his sis-in-laws to spend some time with her, since her husband is in other state, and he promised to keep an eye on things. (They have grown daughter & grandson living with them recently again.. along with daughters boyfriend. -He can be an emotional time-bomb sometimes). So, I dont' really mind hubby spending lots of time over there these past couple weeks. Well, Wed night it's like 9:30pm & I call & he says he's on the way home, just getting into his truck right then. So - I re-heat his dinner. I call him about 10:10pm.. (because it only takes 10 mins to get home from there max.) Then I call like every 15 mins. He never answers & doesn't return messages. Grrrrr... Finally 11:30pm, I'm convinced that something might have happened. I have my son (19) drive, because I know I'll be too upset if I find his truck wrecked. We drive past the sis-in-laws house & he's not there. So, as we go a different route home, my son spots his truck at a bar. Pulls over. I figure I'll give him the bennefit of the doubt & check at the gas station that is next door first. Nope, he's not there. Then I walk into the bar. At first don't see him. ( think he see's me)... I turn & in this little alcove, there are the video slot machine games. HE's just getting up from sitting right next to a blonde. Of course, I'm upset about him playing the games, because he has gambling addiction problems in past & has told me he stopped. I ask him "Seriously?" & he says one sylable answes "Yup". Me: Really? Him: Yes... I star at him for a bit... Him: Go... (evil look in eye). Me: ? Why? Him : Go NOW!.. very angry. Me: Gurggling sound in throat as I try to breath normally. My son doesn't say anything & just trys to steer me out of the bar. So son & me walk around a little bit so I can calm the heck down. (i'm very very upset, and can't breath normally)... Finally get home. Hubby doesn't come home till after 1:30am. Needless to say we both had crappy thursdays' at work due to lack of sleep, etc. I still don't know what I want to do about it. I definetly don't trust him to be where he says he is anymore. How much was he going there this past week when he told me he was at sis's? I rememeber a night earlier in week , maybe monday, where he got ALL defensive about me calling him all night & wanting to know where he was & when he was coming home. Hell, it had been the first time he talked to me that night... so I guess I should have known something was up then. Now.. today, he's out "riding the bike" (Harley) with some of his friends. I've called twice, and both times he's answered, but not riding. he's answered right away, which means he's not riding at the moment. I just called & he was evasive at where they were... that they are "just getting ready to head back out again..." So I ask where he's at. He admits that they stopped at a bar & got a sandwich. I asked if he's playing the slots. He got a pissy at me & said no.. that they are getting ready to leave then. I guess I just don't know if I should believe him or not about how long he is at the bar & if he's gambling away all his money. GRRRrrrrrr... How do you trust again?

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