You are entitled to make mistakes.....

Hmm.... really? Am I? These are a few questions running through my head right now. As some of you know... i just found out gate cheated. of course..... i was told by this other woman.. or as some of you know her... towel girl.... that she did indeed **** my man. Well he made this mistake when drinking.... he is an alcoholic and schizophrenic. This doesn't excuse him in any way shape or form mind you but I do hope you all get a better understanding. Sadly... i was drinking tonight and i made the terrible mistake of enganging in about ten minutes of sexting with some random online guy. This was terribley wrong i know. One friend of mine feels i am entitled to make mistakes... I on the other hand feel i am not. I was wrong. He doesn't think i should tell gate... however i have never kept anything from gate so i do plan on telling him as soon as he gets home. I even saved the conversation for him to share with him. Yes I know I'm a terrible woman, mate, and partner. I should have had better judgement.... and honestly... i was feeling like getting back at him a bit. Sadly... I know this .. well that is an immature route to go. I regret enganging in it. I wish i hadn't.... I'm at a loss on what to do now though. Sometimes i feel like R'ing.... sometimes i feel like just up and leaving. One thing i am sure of though.... I do love gate with all my heart.... and as i have told another here. I do believe gate is my soulmate. I know many of you have a bad taste in your mouth when it comes to this word but honestly the word soulmate to me means ... not just someone who shares all the pleasant feelings... but the bad ones as well and still sticks by you. Gate gets off at six am.... should be here around 7 am. I've been having a hard time... but feel free to dish out 2x4's.... i know i really need them. I ****ed up tonight and i know it.

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