Parents disrespecting children

I'm curious about this phenomenon since it happened to me personally. I'm sure it happens to a lot of people. I'm the youngest and when I was growing up my parents and older brother teased me a lot. It was hurtful but there was nothing I could do. The odd thing was, that I am better looking, smarter, and more athletic than everyone in my family. That's not an opinion, it's just a fact - my dad is about my equal in those areas though. He could be the worst though - at least his teasing hurt the most. Probably because he was my dad who I looked up to. Now as an adult I'm still battling self esteem issues stemming from this. I don't talk to my family, for the past few months. They refuse to treat me as an equal still, and use very subtle tactics to find fault with me whenever I see them. Now I have serious rage towards them, and I feel like the next time my dad says something demeaning to me, in a family setting, I am going to take my hands to him. I actually fantasize about putting my hands on his throat, what I would say to him, spitting in his face... People in society always treated me better than my own family. Kids in school never bullied me. So I never understood the reason. I'm not weaker or smaller... I'm an alpha male type. It boggles my mind how the bullying started and why it kept going. I guess I was too young to know the difference. It hurts so much that I know deep down, he seriously resents me. Yet he always pretended to be my friend. I don't know why parents do this, what the motive is, and how common it is. If anyone can offer advice or resources it would be good.

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