I'm Back

Hey everyone, So last time I was on here it was August 2012. Wow, time flies.. I just wanted to say that after my last threads, things got really crazy between me and my H. I was making calls to lawyers and the whole bit, hadn't seen him in days.. But alas, something inside of me was still urging me to give him ONE last string to hold on to....I know what you're thinking :rolleyes: and I can understand why some might think I'm an Idiot.. But honestly, it HAS turned out for the better. And I NEVER thought I would be able to say that, especially when me and my H were on the brink of D. Background: I had been through 7 years of subtle and blatant torture with my H. He was constantly running around behind my back with other women...treating me like I was the one who needed to change. Gave me grief left right and center. And was never truly present in our marriage. In times of trouble, I was always the one to blame while he ran around and played single. To make a long story short.....he put me through hell. And in response, I put him through hell at one point too. But in the end, he still chose to push me to my limits, and that's when I came to this site and began to vent. And months later is when I decided to pack up and leave. For those who don't recognize me or remember what had happened, you can read my threads and get an idea of what was going on at that time. So anyway...what happened after the break up.... In a nutshell, I ended up calling my H to tell him he could come see our children at a specific date to keep things somewhat peaceful. We ended up talking on the phone, and at this point he had told me some spiritual experiences he had gone through those past few days (as a christian woman this is just what I believe and now what he believes also). I was in shock because up until then we did not share certain beliefs with each other. After that we met up, and have not left each others side since. I can honestly say at this point it was the best decision I have ever made in my life. He has done a 180. We started going to church together (I used to go by myself, because he refused to go), he thoroughly enjoys it too. He leads us in bible study sometimes. He always calls me and lets me know what's going on. He tells me what he's up to, and if I question where he is or what he's been doing, he tells me in sincerity and description what he's been up to (Never happened before). He has asked to take care of our children for me while I have been in school despite the fact that we have paid daycare (he never used to do it willingly). He is just so much happier and honest now. He shows his love for me and our children regularly. We still sometimes have our arguments and disagreements, but that's like any couple..so I don't hold the gun to his head for those things. It does take two to fight also. But honestly, I am overjoyed to have stuck it out. I feel like my marriage was dead, and now it's alive. There is hope :) It has only been 7 months since then, but what a difference! Thank you to all who talked with me during that time....no matter what, it was all for the better, and having that support means a lot to me.

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