Really don't know how to put this but last night I was trying to get my husband in the mood but he declined. My fillings were hurt cause he has never turned me down for it except for the past couple of weeks. He normally has a very high drive. So like most women I guessed that he was turned off by me cause do to stress at work and home I have gained about 7 or 8 lbs. and or I thought that he didn't love me anymore since he said it several weeks ago and took it back. I went to bed he kept texting me telling me to come in the living room and talk to him. I figured he wanted to appolizie for hurting my filling because he knew how I felt. Next think I know he is forcing his self on top of me and pulling my pants down. He finally got off top of me after several min. and after he seen me crying I was fighting like hell to get him out of me and off of me but nothing worked. When he finally got up I grabbed my pants and went into the bedroom. Now this morning he thinks he has done nothing wrong he said he was just being rough because we have before. When we have been rough in the past there was a safe word and we had talked about it before hand. The whole time he was doing this I was screaming no, begging him to stop and fighting back. But he didn't care. I have several small bruises on my legs and wrist from where he held me down. He thinks that he didn't rape me because he didn't know better and just thought I was playing along when I defiantly wasn't. I just am so confused I fill that he raped me but he keeps telling me I am being dramatic that it wasn't because he thought I wanted it. I really fill like I am losing my mind. I just don't know if I should trust my gut that he did rape me or believe him that I am looking too much into and being dramatic.
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