Okay so I'm pretty new to this asking strangers for help thing, so I'm just going to explain my situation as best as possible.
I have been married for 6 years. I got married when I was 20 years old, my husband was 24. We had been together prior to marriage for 6 years. In total we have now been together for about 12 years. We have two children together and one on the way. Needless to say we were really young when we started dating, and to be honest we both had done some pretty childish and stupid stuff in our relationship past. We both also come from really dysfunctional families. Which has not helped our relationship in any means.
So lets move on to why I am here, Im not happy. I'm 7 months pregnant and have two children with a man I feel like I've lost touch with.
Backing up to right before we had our first child, my husband had this ongoing werid relationship with my best friend at the time. By weird relationship I mean fooling around behind my back, but not to the point of them having sex and I made this kind of behavior okay by not inflicting any boundaries or breaking it off when i found out about it (he told me at our 5 year anniversary dinner all about it) Then came baby one. Everything was good and then came baby two. After baby two he started these werid relationships with women again. But heres the difference he asked me permission to be with and do these things and I completely agreed to this torment. Now I know this all sounds so messed up and I also know I created that situation by making it okay.
Anyway here comes baby three, we moved to a completely different state ( in my mind it was in hope to get him away from everyone and everything in our prior state) Since moving there has been alot of hostility,arguments and distance. He has become very distant from me and I know I haven't mentioned yet that through these 12 years we have NEVER be able to communicate correctly with each other ie-without calling names or being just pure mean to each other.
I just want Peace. I want to be happy, I want my children to be happy and furthermore I want my husband and I to be fixed.
Thanks for taking the time to read.
I have been married for 6 years. I got married when I was 20 years old, my husband was 24. We had been together prior to marriage for 6 years. In total we have now been together for about 12 years. We have two children together and one on the way. Needless to say we were really young when we started dating, and to be honest we both had done some pretty childish and stupid stuff in our relationship past. We both also come from really dysfunctional families. Which has not helped our relationship in any means.
So lets move on to why I am here, Im not happy. I'm 7 months pregnant and have two children with a man I feel like I've lost touch with.
Backing up to right before we had our first child, my husband had this ongoing werid relationship with my best friend at the time. By weird relationship I mean fooling around behind my back, but not to the point of them having sex and I made this kind of behavior okay by not inflicting any boundaries or breaking it off when i found out about it (he told me at our 5 year anniversary dinner all about it) Then came baby one. Everything was good and then came baby two. After baby two he started these werid relationships with women again. But heres the difference he asked me permission to be with and do these things and I completely agreed to this torment. Now I know this all sounds so messed up and I also know I created that situation by making it okay.
Anyway here comes baby three, we moved to a completely different state ( in my mind it was in hope to get him away from everyone and everything in our prior state) Since moving there has been alot of hostility,arguments and distance. He has become very distant from me and I know I haven't mentioned yet that through these 12 years we have NEVER be able to communicate correctly with each other ie-without calling names or being just pure mean to each other.
I just want Peace. I want to be happy, I want my children to be happy and furthermore I want my husband and I to be fixed.
Thanks for taking the time to read.
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