It has taken me a week to post this. At first I was too hurt to think clearly and then I was just so angry that I feared for what I would say. Found out that my husband is cheating. Still not sure how far it has gone. Based on the text messages they see each other often and appear to be in love. Confronted him about how his behavior has changed without revealing that I had read the text messages. He proceeded to semi confess but kept back much of what I know to be true from his text messages. Proceeded to then blame me for being such a horrible wife that I drove him to this. My husband is very manipulative. So much so that I know that he has been manipulating me for the past 14 years but I basically went along with it. I have been a passive idiot and part of me feels like this is what you get when you let someone have everything they want. I never argue. I don't like to cross him because I don't enjoy being yelled at and told how awful I am. S o I compromise and comply. I smile and go along with almost anything that makes him happy and this is what I get. It is the "I love you" text that he sent her that hurts the most. It is seared in my mind and is making me feel physically sick. I feel strange. I can't even cry. I feel like I need to cry but I can't. He actually has the nerve to lecture me about this that and the other this morning. He likes pointing out the faults of others. Every word he says is infuriating. All I hear is "I am a liar and a cheater". I think if I could cry about it I would feel a bit better. In all our 14 years together I have never cheated or even entertained flirting. If I think someone is getting a little too cozy or familiar with me, I have always done whatever is necessary to make it clear that I am married and will not go there. He has often praised my marital loyalty and loves the fact that he never worries about me cheating. I guess this is the thanks I get. I am not s ure what to do now to get right in my mind. I am praying for help.
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