Okay so I've been with my boyfriend on and off (one break up) for over 4 months. I'm not 100% happy with how things are but I love him so I'm going to talk to him about how I feel sometime this week. He's amazing for 3 days a week and puts effort in and makes me feel wanted and like he cares but for the other four I feel like he doesn't care and it's playing havoc on my emotions. I need to see him more than 3 times a week. 3 times a week sounds like a lot to some people and yes it is but only 30 minutes of that is with just us, the other time it's with our friends in college time. I feel like on those three days he wants me but on the other 4 he doesn't. I'm not sure if it's just me that is very insecure or that he really just wants to be single those 4 days. How can I bring this up? How can I stop my insecurities ruining everything?
You're probably wondering how I can love someone after four months and not spent much time alone with them, I don't know how I do but I know I do. We've only been saying it for a couple of days so it's not like it's been since week one. I've never loved anyone before and thought I would never be able to say ''I love you'' to anyone but with him it just comes naturally. I've had a crush for over a year (on someone different and not at the same time as my boyfriend) and I never felt the way I did when I had a crush on my boyfriend, there's something about him that's special so I'd rather not break up with him right now.
TLDR: I'm insecure, feel like boyfriend doesn't care as he will only spend 30 minutes a week alone with me, can always find time to go out drinking. How can I bring this up? How can I stop my insecurities ruining everything?
You're probably wondering how I can love someone after four months and not spent much time alone with them, I don't know how I do but I know I do. We've only been saying it for a couple of days so it's not like it's been since week one. I've never loved anyone before and thought I would never be able to say ''I love you'' to anyone but with him it just comes naturally. I've had a crush for over a year (on someone different and not at the same time as my boyfriend) and I never felt the way I did when I had a crush on my boyfriend, there's something about him that's special so I'd rather not break up with him right now.
TLDR: I'm insecure, feel like boyfriend doesn't care as he will only spend 30 minutes a week alone with me, can always find time to go out drinking. How can I bring this up? How can I stop my insecurities ruining everything?
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