I married someone that I dated for a few months, but we had known each other for many years. I am an educated professional, my husband has a GED who has trouble keeping a job. It made no difference to me, as I loved him, so we got married.
When we married, the only thing that I asked is for him to at least get a part-time job. Just enough to offset his own expenses. I wasn't making enough to support another person (my child and I were barely making it...the child is from another relationship). All he did was sit around the house, nitpick at everything, which would make me cry. The only time he was nice is when I would have sex with him, other than that, he was fairly distant. We separated after one year, due to drug abuse on his end.
Fast forward four years later, we are still married. We have been separated for three years. He lives in a different state. I have wore my wedding ring every day, I still love him so much and not a day went by without thinking of him.
We recently started talking again and he went through rehab, therapy and he sounds normal, rational, is working, etc. He sounds healthy in every possible way. We are having good conversations and neither of us are dating anyone.
I have mentioned more than once that I would like to do counseling or something to put our marriage back together. He is the love of my life and I know in my heart if this doesn't work out (we are both 41), this will be a life changing event for me. I absolutely, cannot go through the stress of another relationship. I cannot do it. I feel that God put us together, I feel that we are supposed to be together.
He is so sweet to me, he promptly returns my calls. We spend hours on the phone. However, anytime I mention that I would like us to see if we can salvage things, he says that he's afraid he'll disappoint me, that he may not be able to be the type of husband that I need and that he doesn't feel that he is in a place where he can meet the "demands" of being a husband and a stepfather.
I can't even google "saving a marriage after a long separation" because no resource exists. I love him so much and I never stopped loving him...things were unsafe and I needed to protect my child. He seems ok now...
I need to know where a resource exists...I so need one.
When we married, the only thing that I asked is for him to at least get a part-time job. Just enough to offset his own expenses. I wasn't making enough to support another person (my child and I were barely making it...the child is from another relationship). All he did was sit around the house, nitpick at everything, which would make me cry. The only time he was nice is when I would have sex with him, other than that, he was fairly distant. We separated after one year, due to drug abuse on his end.
Fast forward four years later, we are still married. We have been separated for three years. He lives in a different state. I have wore my wedding ring every day, I still love him so much and not a day went by without thinking of him.
We recently started talking again and he went through rehab, therapy and he sounds normal, rational, is working, etc. He sounds healthy in every possible way. We are having good conversations and neither of us are dating anyone.
I have mentioned more than once that I would like to do counseling or something to put our marriage back together. He is the love of my life and I know in my heart if this doesn't work out (we are both 41), this will be a life changing event for me. I absolutely, cannot go through the stress of another relationship. I cannot do it. I feel that God put us together, I feel that we are supposed to be together.
He is so sweet to me, he promptly returns my calls. We spend hours on the phone. However, anytime I mention that I would like us to see if we can salvage things, he says that he's afraid he'll disappoint me, that he may not be able to be the type of husband that I need and that he doesn't feel that he is in a place where he can meet the "demands" of being a husband and a stepfather.
I can't even google "saving a marriage after a long separation" because no resource exists. I love him so much and I never stopped loving him...things were unsafe and I needed to protect my child. He seems ok now...
I need to know where a resource exists...I so need one.
Put the internet to work for you.
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