So i broke up with my ex after 10 months. I ignored her for a further 2 months and i basically told her to move on etc. Then after those 2 months i contacted her again just to check up on her, see how she's doing and we met up.
Thing is, i never loved her, it was more of infatuation or lust or whatever. She expressed how much she loved me but i never appreciated her during the whole time we were together and without going into detail, i basically treated her like crap if i'm being totally honest.
BUT why do i feel so god damn guilty? is it my fault that i didn't love her? SHOULD i be feeling like this?
Thing is though, i got with 2 other girls only after a few weeks of breaking up with her. I regret the fact that i never appreciated her but at the same time i know breaking up with her was the right thing to do rather than stringing it along which would have definitely been worse.
Now she recently found someone new, someone who would love her more hopefully. i tried to talk to her via skype/phone and i know she's upset with what i've done and that i never loved her. i don't know why but i do miss her a lot ever since she found someone new (WHY!!??) yet i wouldn't want a relationship with her at the same time
I don't know what question i'm asking actually, i just need a sense of closure etc. We're at Uni if that makes a difference, and partly the other reason why i broke up with her was because of work and personal goals.
Thing is, i never loved her, it was more of infatuation or lust or whatever. She expressed how much she loved me but i never appreciated her during the whole time we were together and without going into detail, i basically treated her like crap if i'm being totally honest.
BUT why do i feel so god damn guilty? is it my fault that i didn't love her? SHOULD i be feeling like this?
Thing is though, i got with 2 other girls only after a few weeks of breaking up with her. I regret the fact that i never appreciated her but at the same time i know breaking up with her was the right thing to do rather than stringing it along which would have definitely been worse.
Now she recently found someone new, someone who would love her more hopefully. i tried to talk to her via skype/phone and i know she's upset with what i've done and that i never loved her. i don't know why but i do miss her a lot ever since she found someone new (WHY!!??) yet i wouldn't want a relationship with her at the same time
I don't know what question i'm asking actually, i just need a sense of closure etc. We're at Uni if that makes a difference, and partly the other reason why i broke up with her was because of work and personal goals.
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