Got into a heated fight with wife!

Hi, So I have been married for about 7 months, been with my wife for about 6 years. We have been getting into arguments/fights more and more lately. The latest one was yesterday. We were getting better the past month, but I guess things were building up. I took the time to make a love letter that I made with a boarder on red and pink paper with dried flowers that I gave her earlier in the month, and I spelled out "I love you" with crushed flowers. This was something I created from my heart and used my creativity to make it, I spent large part of my day to do it, instead of working. So my wife comes home, she see's it, says it's nice and sweet and that she likes it and I am creative. Then goes to bed to play on her facebook, like she does everyday. (this annoys me that she rather spend time on facebook chatting with all her friends than then give me her attention.) Anyway, I try not to let it bother me and we started to play a facebook game she likes on her phone. The weather was very hot, and she took her clothes off and was teasing me that 'she is ready for me' for sex. So I start getting turned on, I tell her sexy things and start foreplay etc.. (One thing I like and my wife doesn't is oral sex, I want to give it to her and she always says no and rejects me.) So I try many ways to turn her on, but she just lays there and stares blankly with no emotion or movement, after about 20 minutes of this, I give up, or she just sighs and rolls over. (of course she will later say I don't turn her on, but it is difficult when she says I can't do this or that etc.., it make me really frustrated.) This frustrates me and makes me mad and disappointed and cold. I just get dressed and walk out of the room. Anyway, we were planning on going to spinning class, and I was really pissed off, but I said I would go,(I should have just stayed home.) We went anyway and it was a horrible class because I was soo angry and had no desire to do the class, plus I did not get a spot next to my wife and was stuck at the back of the class, of course she gets upset at me for not getting the spot, but she did not try to get it for me or ask the person next to her if they could please switch, I get all the blame like usually. We got home, we are not speaking, I got out the car to open the garage door, I did not notice her behind me at the time, when I open the side door I shut it fast. (at the time I did not know she we right behind me.) So apparently I shut the door on her. She came in and said "go inside I don't want to see you" I said "no" so she starting pushing me and shoving me, and then full-out slapped me in the face with all her might. This made me soo pissed off, I called her a '*****' and said 'you are the worst wife in the world'! I was sooo pissed off, I just left the house in the rain with no jacket and walked for hours, but I was still pissed off, when I finally got home. She was awake still, and she had destroyed the 'love craft of flowers' I made her along with every love letter and love crafts I have made her and pilled it all over my desk. This just made me furious, so I threw the garage everywhere off my desk, and told her 'it's over'! I told her she is 'crazy' she should 'be in hell where she belongs, I told her she is abusive, manipulative, controlling, and that she is a corpse in bed with no sexual desires.' She said stuff back like I am not soo good, or she has had better lovers and I don't turn her on, and that my love crafts/letters were just lies etc.. I was soo pissed off, I started packing my bags to leave and throwing things around, so threaten to call the police, so I just stopped and tried to cool off. After some time, we ended up talking, apologizing and explaining our points of views and some things that are bothering each-other and that we were both angry and said and did things that we shouldn't have. But it still ended with her basically telling me that our love is dying, we do not respect each-other anymore and the relationship is over and we should split and that I should think about what i want to do. I ended up sleeping on the couch, but could not really sleep because I was soo angry, sad, lost, and broken-hearted. So in the morning still no change in my emotions, I was picturing life without her, I figured I was probably much worse without her and I still do care about her even though she abused me and destroyed all the love crafts and letters I put my heart into and time for her. Even though my heart is broken, and I am so sad, angry and hurt, I still care about her, and I know I said things that hurt her too. I went to the bedroom in the morning where she was sleeping and tried to comfort her and told her, that "even though I am hurt, sad, angry and my heart is broken, that I still care about her and that I want to work things out and because I still have feelings for her, it's not good to just throw it away." I told her that we stopped to appreciate each-other and respect each-other as we used too, and this is wrong and we need to work harder to appreciate and respect one another. I told her that "this is how I feel, I do not know how you feel, but you can let me know" She did not have time to talk but said we can talk more after her work when she gets home. This did make me feel a bit better, but I still feel angry, lost, hurt and my heart is broken, and I can not see myself doing anything romantic for her again anytime soon, because she destroys or puts down or does not give much attention to the romantic things I do. (but of course complains I am not romantic enough when i do not do these things.) So basically now I am waiting for her to come home, and we can talk, I am afraid of what will happen or what she will say, if she keeps saying we should break-up and split, I will be crushed completely and lose all hope in love, romance, and relationships, and I will not have any interest in ever getting married again or even having any type of relationship, I will grow cold as ice and will want to be alone the rest of my life and pray for a fast death. Basically right now I feel life sucks and if my relationship ends with my wife I will not care to live anymore. I have used up all my emotions and love in this relationship, and I have nothing left to give, maybe over time I will get better but right now things look really bad. Any suggestions or advice would be good please? :(

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