Addicted to husband, in a good way?

Hi all, I'm new here. I found this website because I was googling about being addicted to your husband. lol We've been married almost 14 years, been together for over 15 years. We've had some pretty bad fights in the early days and I was always ready to run away. He had commitment issues, not because he wanted to play the field but because he had been a bachelor for so long and he was used to being alone and being independent. He struggled with the thought of giving up his autonomy. But of course, at the time he didn't know how to articulate that to me so we got into lots of fights. But things have mellowed out throughout the years and the misunderstandings have been ironed out and I know he loves me and I love him. It feels like I love him more and more with each passing year. I am HD and he is LD probably because of our age difference. I am 49 and he is 61. I think I am addicted to him because I think about him constantly. When I first met him, I thought he was just average looking. Now he is so handsome to me. When we go to the gym to work out, my eyes drift to him and I gaze at his profile and it makes my heart flip flop. He walks across the room and I am aroused. When we are sitting on the sofa, we cuddle up, or if our cat is between us, our fingers drift together and caress and stroke. I can't wait to get to bed so we can make out. And then the next morning I think about his mouth and his tongue on me and how melty that made me feel, and how I loved him inside me. When we hug or we pass each other, I want to bury my nose in his neck or his shoulder and inhale because I love how he smells. He smells so good. I have to stop myself from doing that sometimes because I can see how annoying that can be after a while. Not only do I find him handsome, but also sexy, and cute! Even when he comes in after working in the yard and he is wet from sweat and his face is covered in dirt, I still want to press myself against him and smother him with kisses. I told him I think I am addicted to you. And he told me that's not good. He has been in therapy and I have not, so I do not know these psychotherapy buzz words. So I googled it and I found out addiction to a person seems to be tied to a lot of toxic painful behaviour. Which is not true in our situation at all. Can we call this a good addiction then? :)

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