what should i do...

It starts from our marriage, we got married 6 years ago on 2007, my husband didn't want to do sex, he did once the next day but then even in honeymoon he didn't , we had emotional fight and he told that he had some stomach issue (acidity) and so he doesn't feel like doing, I couldn't understand still waits…then next 1 years I took care of him like a nurse like taking care of his food. We did have sex sometime and only when I force as he seems to ok , going to office , eating and going for vacation but dnt want to do sex. When I tried to say something or fight ( as I really miss and want to have sex), he yells at me and fight starts, once he even told me that I will divorce u. He was very good otherwise like pampering , cuddle a lot and show love , so after sometime I thought lets leave that part and live, however, its not that easy I thought… Then from starting we had lots of interference from his parents , emotional blackmailing and keep coming to the city we live and issues on small things and that made our relationship really hard, we had fight and the very next thing he says is I will leave u…and then beg to forgiveness, I cried like anything and thought may be next he wont say..but no ..its like ongoing things like even for very small issue and fight ends in mental abuse. As no sex no kid, but I really want to have one ,since we are trying 2 years ( although not much sex only when I force him or sometime from him when we had fight on this a week before , just to show me) , we went to IVF and I got pregnant in one go. When I was 2 months pregnant , we had fight on very small issue and he said the same thing ( that I will leave u ) , I was really fed up from last 4 and ½ years so this time I told him back that lets get divorce , but next day he came and beg like anything so I swear on him that if u tell one more time I will leave u. I was 3 months pregnant and we had fight and he started beating me ( he only once beat me 3 years ago) and tried to kill the baby, that's it , I left the house next day for office and in office only decided not to go back and leave me for some months…I took a shared apartment in 5 days time ( 5 day I stay with frends and sister) , he came but arguing abt his parents and not repent what he did , he told me he was frustrated becoz of his parents and our relationship so he beat me. His father also one beat his mother in front of us, so no wonder he picked this from him. We started living separating , I am in shared apartment and he is in our house, he do tell me to come back but in anger never said to come back nicely , I told him I need a break and very scared for our kid. He met lawyers and starts selling our property in overseas, I cried the whole day he told him that he start the property sell, then I thought this is what he want…he wanted to sell our house as well and forcefully put that on Market , I dnt want to so I called real estate directly and stop the sell and now he took the rent apartment and I come back in house. I shifted to my house, pregnant and alone , parents are in overseas , and due to visa issue can come only 1 years, which I want to save that for baby. Once at home I found 1 used wrapper of condom and I was shocked since we never used. I asked him and after so many talk he accepted that he did once ….i was really bad , then I found his call details and that was most shocking . he made lot of calls to escort service and his bank account transactions also prove this. One place he was quite regular and spend the money like anything. He was started all this in just 15 days and at time he was trying to work out. After I found out all this , he wants me to come back and very emotional and told he is very sorry and wants to work out our future, I told him to tell me truth and asked him that its really confusing as he never wants to do sex with me and now going to call girls , he told that he went once and didn't happen ….but his calls details and transaction details say a different story … I still want to forgive, but wants to know the truth, which he keep twisting and not accepting , one place he was quite regular and called lot many time , when I ask him why u call them, he told me I called them but only went once , I cant believe this.. I told him to go sexologist and want to know why he don't do with me and now started seeing girls …he is agree to go but not accepting that he went more than once , he went to strips , lap dance and pub…. And we had on going issue from parents , who doesn't want to leave us in our life and wants to stay with us permanently , I told my husband that I dnt want to stay with them , if they want to come . they can and stay nearby , that's way he have our independence and we can take care of them as well, but parents are not agree and blackmailing my husband, he told me that he is confused…. I am sorry for this long story, seriously I didn't cover everything…….pls share ur views.

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