I just think they look so perfect even on the runway where there's no Photoshop the way they walk is mesmerising. They look so happy and confident too. This isn't a phase I'm going through I have been watching fashion shows (not just VS) for the last 9 years (I'm 23) and I've always dreamed of looking like a graceful, beautiful woman. It's impossible though because I am short (5'3") and 106lbs flat chested with a massive bum/hips but even in terms of my face it is very round and chubby like a baby's not sexy and defined. I get called cute a lot the average age people place me at is 15 but I want to be called hot, womanly and beautiful... Even if I wear my sexy red mini dress I am called innocent.
I'm too scared to date because I feel so ugly compared to women in the media especially VS models I know it sounds silly but the fear of not being good enough or acceptable to society has turned me into a recluse I barely have friends never mind dates. I don't know how a man could ever look at me I feel utterly ashamed of myself. I know if I looked like them my life would be perfect!I am in eating disorder recovery and it is hell I wish I was just blessed with beauty.
Any words of wisdom? You can laugh at me if you want too...
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