My husband wished our 6 week old daughter dead tonight. He wished she drowned but he said since he'd end up in jail, he'll just pretend to love her and show her off to his friends. He gets like this when he's drinks. I hate it when he drinks because he becomes so mean and depressed. Before this happened he went to the closet and hid himself. I found him there and asked why he was there, he called me a **** and a ***** and kicked me in the leg. He said I should have listened to him when he told me to park our car in the driveway instead of the garage. When I didn't listen he got angry. He told me to always do what he says. He got angry because I disobeyed him. He then told me to leave. So I began to pack my things along with our baby's and proceeded to go to my parents house. He stopped me to tell me that if I left he'd never let any of my family near our house and if they did, he'd punch them in the face. So I stayed.
He proceeded to tell me that he wished he was married to someone else who did not want a child. Who'd give their whole attention to him and no one else. He said he hated me and didn't know if he loved me anymore because I paid more attention to our baby than him. That our marriage is failing because of the stupid baby.
He threw his wedding ring on the floor so because of that I threw mine in his face and punched him on the cheek. Not hard but I just wanted to hurt him too. I know I was wrong but I didn't know what to do. He'd be so emotionally hurtful sometimes. He told me he wishes that his next wife will listen to him and not have a child he didn't want. He wishes that he was single and had a girlfriend to travel with instead of being a miserable father who had to work just to pay bills. He says he's jealous of our friends who had the life he wants because they have no kid to tie them down.
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep. He says he makes all the money and my job provides nothing for the family. He called me stupid, dumb. He called me a **** and a *****.
I love him. I don't know what he feels about me anymore. He wishes his mother was still alive because she is the only one who made him happy. No one but her made him happy.
What do I do? I don't know what to do. I can't sleep thinking about it. I just start to cry and listen to his words playing in my head over and over again.
I just need advice.
He proceeded to tell me that he wished he was married to someone else who did not want a child. Who'd give their whole attention to him and no one else. He said he hated me and didn't know if he loved me anymore because I paid more attention to our baby than him. That our marriage is failing because of the stupid baby.
He threw his wedding ring on the floor so because of that I threw mine in his face and punched him on the cheek. Not hard but I just wanted to hurt him too. I know I was wrong but I didn't know what to do. He'd be so emotionally hurtful sometimes. He told me he wishes that his next wife will listen to him and not have a child he didn't want. He wishes that he was single and had a girlfriend to travel with instead of being a miserable father who had to work just to pay bills. He says he's jealous of our friends who had the life he wants because they have no kid to tie them down.
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep. He says he makes all the money and my job provides nothing for the family. He called me stupid, dumb. He called me a **** and a *****.
I love him. I don't know what he feels about me anymore. He wishes his mother was still alive because she is the only one who made him happy. No one but her made him happy.
What do I do? I don't know what to do. I can't sleep thinking about it. I just start to cry and listen to his words playing in my head over and over again.
I just need advice.
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