Okay, so brief background on me: I am recently divorced. She, the ex, walked out on me after a ten year marriage in part because of the fact that I was depressed since I was a teen. I was finally diagnosed the day that she moved out as having "major depressive disorder." I have been doing well dealing with the hurt she caused by her infidelity and walking out on me. I love her.
Anyway, I have been on meds that seem to be working okay... except for one small problem... I seriously don't care about anything. True, it helps me sort of shrug off my failed marriage, but I also am having problems caring about my job, my future, my health etc. It's a tough balancing act because when I am off the meds, I agonize over my failed marriage and pine over my now ex-wife - not to mention seriously contemplating suicide.
Has anyone else ever had this problem? The best way to describe it is that I have no motivation to do anything, at all. I would be happy sleeping all day, every day. It's like there is not even any motivation to keep working hard at my job, because I don't care about the consequences of losing it - I have a bit of money saved so it's not like I would face any financial difficulties for about a year anyway. Somehow, I still have a job... I would try different meds, but I have tried SOOO many, and they all have some pretty serious side effects with me. Is it about time I seek counseling? I'm 33 and I am just floating along in life, dropped out of college to start a family, but obviously that didn't work out. Just kind of don't know what to do any more.
Anyway, I have been on meds that seem to be working okay... except for one small problem... I seriously don't care about anything. True, it helps me sort of shrug off my failed marriage, but I also am having problems caring about my job, my future, my health etc. It's a tough balancing act because when I am off the meds, I agonize over my failed marriage and pine over my now ex-wife - not to mention seriously contemplating suicide.
Has anyone else ever had this problem? The best way to describe it is that I have no motivation to do anything, at all. I would be happy sleeping all day, every day. It's like there is not even any motivation to keep working hard at my job, because I don't care about the consequences of losing it - I have a bit of money saved so it's not like I would face any financial difficulties for about a year anyway. Somehow, I still have a job... I would try different meds, but I have tried SOOO many, and they all have some pretty serious side effects with me. Is it about time I seek counseling? I'm 33 and I am just floating along in life, dropped out of college to start a family, but obviously that didn't work out. Just kind of don't know what to do any more.
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