Confused.... again

It's been a while since I last posted here as my marriage was in an upturn... or so I thought. Nothing is ever perfect as my wife and I both work and have two children that are heavily into figure skating and hockey for most of the year. As this year moved along I was spending more and more time at the rink with the kids (which I enjoy). Anyway, I noticed my wife becoming more withdrawn from things again where once I got home she would adjourn to the bedroom and spend the evening online. This happened a few years ago as well, but we saw the mc and things started working a little better. The mc was also a parenting counselor and helped me to become a better parent as well. I often found myself yelling when getting frustrated, but managed to work myself out of that so that I could be the parent that my kids needed. It comes down to me feeling unappreciated and even abused in my home. My wife often comments about me being bald and a little over weigh t and often calls me by my mothers name (who she hated until she died and beyond). I do more than my fair share around the home and outside, but never is she satisfied. Well, last night her tablet pinged (she was in the other room) and I looked at the message coming in from one of her friends. There was a lot of talk of her not being appreciated and of a "relationship" with another man... the same one from the past that is also married. She makes it look like he is the one messaging her, but I can tell that she is the one keeping it going.

I honestly don't think that I can deal with this sort of situation again. My problem is that I worry about my kids and I want the best for them and I also want what is best for me. It is hard to think that while I love her, she does not love me. I think I am going to have a few sleepless nights.

Sorry, I just needed to tell someone,
SJ :(

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