I really don't know where to start.
Problems really started back in 2010. We are both going to school in the same program at the same time away from home while renovating a house. She works 1-2 days a week at post office, and the rest of the money is from school loans.
I have been angry over the years due to her actions/inactions, and have been rather negative at times. I admit that this is not how I have always been, and have recently gotten back to the person that I really am.
My wife seems to be having a mid life crisis at the age of 29, I am 32. She feels that her whole life is ruined, and is extremely confused right now.
She met a man, saw him twice, no sex, but sent many sexual texts and pictures. This guy ended up shooting her down, he is in the army, after she expressed her love for someone she did not even know.
The strange thing is that we live together, no other option, she wants me to be her friend. We were still having really great sex, but it hurt me and later past issues form her childhood came out and we stopped having sex. However, she still wants to sleep in the same bed and hold. She also wants to be around me when I stay distant from her.
She wants to love me and be with me, and it makes complete logical sense to do so. I tried the plan A, but I made mistakes because I did not understand what her intentions were and she became really jealous of myself and some other women, that I was either looking at or talking to.
She is now seeing a counselor, but only one session. She has been extremely evil to me and extremely hurtful. She rewrites the past to make me seem far worse than I ever was, and to erase any her past mistakes.
She never takes responsibility for her mistakes, it is always someone else's fault and she is always a Victim, some times she will admit fault, but goes right back.
I can't move out of this house for at least 6 months, we have so much money sunk into this house ~$50k and $16K credit card debt.
Do I need to adapt the 180 plan? I tried being non-stop positive, however she would get really nasty and bring me right down. I tried to avoid any negative talk, but she won't stop making accusations and then I feel the need to defend myself. I am tried of admitting fault on the same things and having to explain why things turned out this way.
I gave her, her whole life. No one has ever done this much for her, not even her family, not herself, no one.
I am her first everything as well, I really love her and don't know what to do.
I am going to file the divorce today, that I don't even want. I had the do all the work, she does not want this, but explains that she is not "in love" with me, and can't seem to get over past issues. She has two thoughts going on at the same time, one is stronger in the morning, one is stronger in the evening. I am worried she is crazy, this whole situation is crazy, I feel crazy for even putting up with this, but I love her so much. Should I call her parents, I want her to stay with me no matter what.
Problems really started back in 2010. We are both going to school in the same program at the same time away from home while renovating a house. She works 1-2 days a week at post office, and the rest of the money is from school loans.
I have been angry over the years due to her actions/inactions, and have been rather negative at times. I admit that this is not how I have always been, and have recently gotten back to the person that I really am.
My wife seems to be having a mid life crisis at the age of 29, I am 32. She feels that her whole life is ruined, and is extremely confused right now.
She met a man, saw him twice, no sex, but sent many sexual texts and pictures. This guy ended up shooting her down, he is in the army, after she expressed her love for someone she did not even know.
The strange thing is that we live together, no other option, she wants me to be her friend. We were still having really great sex, but it hurt me and later past issues form her childhood came out and we stopped having sex. However, she still wants to sleep in the same bed and hold. She also wants to be around me when I stay distant from her.
She wants to love me and be with me, and it makes complete logical sense to do so. I tried the plan A, but I made mistakes because I did not understand what her intentions were and she became really jealous of myself and some other women, that I was either looking at or talking to.
She is now seeing a counselor, but only one session. She has been extremely evil to me and extremely hurtful. She rewrites the past to make me seem far worse than I ever was, and to erase any her past mistakes.
She never takes responsibility for her mistakes, it is always someone else's fault and she is always a Victim, some times she will admit fault, but goes right back.
I can't move out of this house for at least 6 months, we have so much money sunk into this house ~$50k and $16K credit card debt.
Do I need to adapt the 180 plan? I tried being non-stop positive, however she would get really nasty and bring me right down. I tried to avoid any negative talk, but she won't stop making accusations and then I feel the need to defend myself. I am tried of admitting fault on the same things and having to explain why things turned out this way.
I gave her, her whole life. No one has ever done this much for her, not even her family, not herself, no one.
I am her first everything as well, I really love her and don't know what to do.
I am going to file the divorce today, that I don't even want. I had the do all the work, she does not want this, but explains that she is not "in love" with me, and can't seem to get over past issues. She has two thoughts going on at the same time, one is stronger in the morning, one is stronger in the evening. I am worried she is crazy, this whole situation is crazy, I feel crazy for even putting up with this, but I love her so much. Should I call her parents, I want her to stay with me no matter what.
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