I started a new job 2 months ago as a Medical Path Lab Assistant and feel as though I am being bullied, but would you regard this as bullying?
I already suffer with social anxiety and each day is a massive battle, and I know I probably often appear to be 'Serious/angry faced' which probably makes people regard me as uptight/unapproachable, but I always make conscious efforts to be nice to others, try to altar my demeanor in a way which evokes lightheartedness/pleasantness but I do wonder if this just opens the door for others to get me where it hurts.
Here are 2 examples of scenarios at work which massively hurt me psychologically
Scenario One: I was eating the social area just for the 20ish pathology staff, 2 female biomedical scientists were giving me really dirty looks, and had this thing going on between the two of them, as if to clearly suggest they disliked me being in the eating area and wanted me gone, I did try to make light conversation by asking about secret santa idea, but they just ignored me, I accept they dislike me there probably due to my awkward presence, inability to relax and fit into the group, nevertheless it really ruined my week and I've not eaten in the eating area since and probably won't go back.
Scenario two: There is a male biomedical scientist who is 30ish and very popular/confident among the pathology staff, he goes out of his way to be funny, he's popular and is massively extrovert. On my first week he was giving me really dirty looks whilst talking with another pathology worker which made me very uncomfortable, I've since tried smiling at him, saying hi etc but he plainly blanks me, the other day I said 'Hi' whilst walking down the corridor and he gave me a really s****y look, then gave a member of staff a really big warm hello and made a massive fuss of her right after I said as if to clearly suggest he doesn't like me, he also always gives me dirty looks which makes me feel like turd
I respect that being a new employee isn't easy but I feel really horrible in this environment given that I already have high level social anxiety and these people who are meant to be mature professionals working in a serious healthcare environment are treating me in a way which is greatly unpleasant and have made no effort to involve me.
Despite the way I am being treated I have attended 2 work social events - one was to a pub for a meal after work which I panicked but went with the intention of involving myself, no one talked to me
- the other was to a birthday party of an employee in the department, again no one talked to me and I left feeling horrible
I am receiving CBT for my anxiety and literally doing all the exposure/tasks hence my commitment to attending work social events I would have once avoided
I am going to look for a new job, which is a shame as I find working in pathology really interesting
I already suffer with social anxiety and each day is a massive battle, and I know I probably often appear to be 'Serious/angry faced' which probably makes people regard me as uptight/unapproachable, but I always make conscious efforts to be nice to others, try to altar my demeanor in a way which evokes lightheartedness/pleasantness but I do wonder if this just opens the door for others to get me where it hurts.
Here are 2 examples of scenarios at work which massively hurt me psychologically
Scenario One: I was eating the social area just for the 20ish pathology staff, 2 female biomedical scientists were giving me really dirty looks, and had this thing going on between the two of them, as if to clearly suggest they disliked me being in the eating area and wanted me gone, I did try to make light conversation by asking about secret santa idea, but they just ignored me, I accept they dislike me there probably due to my awkward presence, inability to relax and fit into the group, nevertheless it really ruined my week and I've not eaten in the eating area since and probably won't go back.
Scenario two: There is a male biomedical scientist who is 30ish and very popular/confident among the pathology staff, he goes out of his way to be funny, he's popular and is massively extrovert. On my first week he was giving me really dirty looks whilst talking with another pathology worker which made me very uncomfortable, I've since tried smiling at him, saying hi etc but he plainly blanks me, the other day I said 'Hi' whilst walking down the corridor and he gave me a really s****y look, then gave a member of staff a really big warm hello and made a massive fuss of her right after I said as if to clearly suggest he doesn't like me, he also always gives me dirty looks which makes me feel like turd
I respect that being a new employee isn't easy but I feel really horrible in this environment given that I already have high level social anxiety and these people who are meant to be mature professionals working in a serious healthcare environment are treating me in a way which is greatly unpleasant and have made no effort to involve me.
Despite the way I am being treated I have attended 2 work social events - one was to a pub for a meal after work which I panicked but went with the intention of involving myself, no one talked to me
- the other was to a birthday party of an employee in the department, again no one talked to me and I left feeling horrible
I am receiving CBT for my anxiety and literally doing all the exposure/tasks hence my commitment to attending work social events I would have once avoided
I am going to look for a new job, which is a shame as I find working in pathology really interesting
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