Hi,
I met my husband when I was quite Young and we have been together for some years, the first time we met I felt so energetic, the meeting left me feeling so happy. So we started talking a lot together and slowly, slowly we just knew that we were going to be together, it just happend natural.
He would share so many Things with me, take me to new Places, bringing home gifts and treats for me, taking really good care of me and doing so many Things like cooking great dinners for us, writing for me, etc. I met his Family and he met mine. He proposed to me, and we got engaged. Everything still good and every night we would cuddle up and I felt really loved and wanted with him, and later we got married.
All seemed pretty good, the only thing was, sometimes he got jealous really easily over nothing, but I erased these episodes from my memory.
So with time his jealousy got worse, he became quite controlling. He started accusing me of different Things, some of these were pretty crazy, I should ask before I would go out and if I didn't he would accuse me of horrible Things, he said I was looking at men everywhere we went and he slaped me once and hitted me once because of all the Things i did.
This side was completely different and everything it was like this, it was like being with a different man, impossible to reach.
So after he hit me, so I went living with my mother for some time, and I told him I couldn't be with him and why.
I have seen him Down like this now, crying all the time, not taking care of himself, seeing it was his fault, seeing his flaws and his Desire to change and that he started going to a terapeut. I feel horrible, this was all I hoped for before(not him feeling bad of course, but seeing what he was doing and wanting to chance, and doing something for it), and it is even more difficult to go though with because his sides are so different, the one was like heaven and the other so horrible.
Now I feel like an idiot. I really want to try Again with him, but I can't decide wether that is a good idea or not, sometimes I ask him about how he is doing and so and so talking Little and it just makes me feel like I am leading him on if I don't make a decision once for all. I just feel like I create some problem no matter what I decide. I hate to see him like this and I love him and miss him, I want to try Again with him, but I don't know if that would be too stupid of me, and my mother has been really supporting in this time and I feel like it would be like betraying her because she would worry, she has helped me and I knew she would be angry about my decision. If I don't go back with him, I don't know how I can stay away from him, he has been one of the most important people in my life, I love him, and when I see him now it Hurts and if he really can chance I am sorry to let this passe, because I really loved him and we also had good together. But I don't want to make a stupid decision, and I hate to hurt people but of course I also have to think about myself, I am just so confused.
I met my husband when I was quite Young and we have been together for some years, the first time we met I felt so energetic, the meeting left me feeling so happy. So we started talking a lot together and slowly, slowly we just knew that we were going to be together, it just happend natural.
He would share so many Things with me, take me to new Places, bringing home gifts and treats for me, taking really good care of me and doing so many Things like cooking great dinners for us, writing for me, etc. I met his Family and he met mine. He proposed to me, and we got engaged. Everything still good and every night we would cuddle up and I felt really loved and wanted with him, and later we got married.
All seemed pretty good, the only thing was, sometimes he got jealous really easily over nothing, but I erased these episodes from my memory.
So with time his jealousy got worse, he became quite controlling. He started accusing me of different Things, some of these were pretty crazy, I should ask before I would go out and if I didn't he would accuse me of horrible Things, he said I was looking at men everywhere we went and he slaped me once and hitted me once because of all the Things i did.
This side was completely different and everything it was like this, it was like being with a different man, impossible to reach.
So after he hit me, so I went living with my mother for some time, and I told him I couldn't be with him and why.
I have seen him Down like this now, crying all the time, not taking care of himself, seeing it was his fault, seeing his flaws and his Desire to change and that he started going to a terapeut. I feel horrible, this was all I hoped for before(not him feeling bad of course, but seeing what he was doing and wanting to chance, and doing something for it), and it is even more difficult to go though with because his sides are so different, the one was like heaven and the other so horrible.
Now I feel like an idiot. I really want to try Again with him, but I can't decide wether that is a good idea or not, sometimes I ask him about how he is doing and so and so talking Little and it just makes me feel like I am leading him on if I don't make a decision once for all. I just feel like I create some problem no matter what I decide. I hate to see him like this and I love him and miss him, I want to try Again with him, but I don't know if that would be too stupid of me, and my mother has been really supporting in this time and I feel like it would be like betraying her because she would worry, she has helped me and I knew she would be angry about my decision. If I don't go back with him, I don't know how I can stay away from him, he has been one of the most important people in my life, I love him, and when I see him now it Hurts and if he really can chance I am sorry to let this passe, because I really loved him and we also had good together. But I don't want to make a stupid decision, and I hate to hurt people but of course I also have to think about myself, I am just so confused.
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