My husband and I are both recovering addicts. Well I guess I should say that I am recovering. Our addictions are so different that our marriage has worked fairly well. I recently found out that my husband has been lying to me about his drug use. The lies feel like a huge betrayal. I've never seen him use and I don't know what it does to him. He has convinced me in the past that I was wrong when I suspected his drug use so now I don't believe anything he says. I worry that he may have been unfaithful. I love this man with everything I am but... I will not lose everything that I have regained in my life since I became sober. I litter ally lost everything. I was riding a bicycle and had no home and lost the respect of my children. I now have a good job a car that I can be proud of and a home but most of all I have my children back in my life. Also, our marriage is pretty much sexless. He has no desire for intimacy. I have cried to him many times about this. He is happy being my best friend. I was in a ten year marriage to someone very abusive and am now I have someone who would never call me a name or hurt me physically but I simply need more. He won't get help for his addiction and won't talk about it. I feel sick to my stomachs all the time worrying about him having a stroke while using due to already high blood pressure or him getting arrested. Any advice is welcome, please!
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