Hi All,
Read through alot of the stories on here and everyone seems extremely supportive and willing to help share their experiences.
Just thinking of this brings me to tears. Yesterday my wife of 5+ years told me she wasn't happy, and wanted a divorce. I'm not sure it hit me fully right away. I commend her courage for even being able to come out with something like this. I still love her so much and the thought of her not being in my future breaks me.
We had your typical marriage (I thought anyways). We had our issues just like anybody else and the straw the broke the camels back was my inability to show her my affection after we were married. I blame myself and only myself for this. I look back and think how easy it would have been for me to provide her one more hug, one more kiss, one more compliment just to show her how much she meant to me.
We've talked about it before, but I was young (early 20′s) and I didnt understand what it meant to be married, the work involved. I had this grand vision that once I was married, the marriage would take care of itself and we'd retire together in a beach city. I didnt know, and was stupid for assuming such.
I've made strides as a husband over the last 6-12 months which my wife did acknowledge, however in her words it was " too little, too late". I guess I would have thought this was a good sign and projects us back towards a loving/healthy relationship. She is unable to let go of the anger and resentment she had for me from earlier in our marriage. This is up to her, if she cant get past what she felt before, then I accept what she needs from me and wants for her life.
What kills me the most is our two children. 1.5 and 3.5 they are the loves of both of our lives. I cant even write about this topic without tears welling up, slowly streaming down my face. I think of the first day that I'll be without them in the morning, and wont be able to greet them with a kiss and a good morning. Or be able to make them breakfast and get them strapped into the car so I can get to daycare on time.
I speak with my 3.5 year old daughter all the time about the great things were going to do this summer once this snow leaves. We were going to go camping, and look for birds. See the circus when it comes in town, and maybe her favorite thing, go to the avation day at the local airport and surpise her with a helicopter ride. All these things I had envisioned with my beautiful wife by my side to enjoy the moments that only come along once.
Today she told me that she was tired of putting me first (and the kids) while being unhappy and sleep walking through life. She wanted to work on herself and her happiness to be the best person and parents she can be. Also swears that there is no other man, which I've been told not to believe, but I do.
ughh, thanks everyone for reading. :(
Read through alot of the stories on here and everyone seems extremely supportive and willing to help share their experiences.
Just thinking of this brings me to tears. Yesterday my wife of 5+ years told me she wasn't happy, and wanted a divorce. I'm not sure it hit me fully right away. I commend her courage for even being able to come out with something like this. I still love her so much and the thought of her not being in my future breaks me.
We had your typical marriage (I thought anyways). We had our issues just like anybody else and the straw the broke the camels back was my inability to show her my affection after we were married. I blame myself and only myself for this. I look back and think how easy it would have been for me to provide her one more hug, one more kiss, one more compliment just to show her how much she meant to me.
We've talked about it before, but I was young (early 20′s) and I didnt understand what it meant to be married, the work involved. I had this grand vision that once I was married, the marriage would take care of itself and we'd retire together in a beach city. I didnt know, and was stupid for assuming such.
I've made strides as a husband over the last 6-12 months which my wife did acknowledge, however in her words it was " too little, too late". I guess I would have thought this was a good sign and projects us back towards a loving/healthy relationship. She is unable to let go of the anger and resentment she had for me from earlier in our marriage. This is up to her, if she cant get past what she felt before, then I accept what she needs from me and wants for her life.
What kills me the most is our two children. 1.5 and 3.5 they are the loves of both of our lives. I cant even write about this topic without tears welling up, slowly streaming down my face. I think of the first day that I'll be without them in the morning, and wont be able to greet them with a kiss and a good morning. Or be able to make them breakfast and get them strapped into the car so I can get to daycare on time.
I speak with my 3.5 year old daughter all the time about the great things were going to do this summer once this snow leaves. We were going to go camping, and look for birds. See the circus when it comes in town, and maybe her favorite thing, go to the avation day at the local airport and surpise her with a helicopter ride. All these things I had envisioned with my beautiful wife by my side to enjoy the moments that only come along once.
Today she told me that she was tired of putting me first (and the kids) while being unhappy and sleep walking through life. She wanted to work on herself and her happiness to be the best person and parents she can be. Also swears that there is no other man, which I've been told not to believe, but I do.
ughh, thanks everyone for reading. :(
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