10 years ago, my husband discovered that I was having an emotional affair - he was a friend - we spent time together, texted, never had sex. But I kept the relationship a secret.
To this day, when I have to stay late at work, he doesn't trust that I am telling the truth. When a co-worker had to drive me home, my husband almost came and got me (30 minutes out of his way) because of the thoughts that are going through his head. I have the opportunity to attend an awesome training opportunity that is 5 days long and would be totally paid for by my work. But he has made it clear that there is no way I could go.. and that it is all my fault... he wouldn't feel this way if it wasn't for my actions.
How long until I can live a normal life? When he discovered the affair, he made me wear a letter A to the supermarket. He wouldn't let me go to work for two days. I did everything he wanted.
Any more than a minor issue that comes up today, and he is reminded that he can't trust me. He says he wants to but he can't.
If this is how I have to live the rest of my life, I don't think I can ... isn't 10 years of distrust enough? What can I do to be able to live a life that isn't always answering to his distrust?
To this day, when I have to stay late at work, he doesn't trust that I am telling the truth. When a co-worker had to drive me home, my husband almost came and got me (30 minutes out of his way) because of the thoughts that are going through his head. I have the opportunity to attend an awesome training opportunity that is 5 days long and would be totally paid for by my work. But he has made it clear that there is no way I could go.. and that it is all my fault... he wouldn't feel this way if it wasn't for my actions.
How long until I can live a normal life? When he discovered the affair, he made me wear a letter A to the supermarket. He wouldn't let me go to work for two days. I did everything he wanted.
Any more than a minor issue that comes up today, and he is reminded that he can't trust me. He says he wants to but he can't.
If this is how I have to live the rest of my life, I don't think I can ... isn't 10 years of distrust enough? What can I do to be able to live a life that isn't always answering to his distrust?
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