I am so frustrated and it is about sex, as usual. We are in our mid-40's and well, I really don't ever have the urge for sex anymore. I am not interested in a doc to pill me up, inject me up, etc. it is not about my looks, my health, my self-image. I love my life, all 99% of it except the demand on me for sex. I can lay like a log and take it but really despise having to so that. In fact, it brings me to miserable tears.
My poor husband tries so hard. He cooks, leans, works, makes a nice paycheck, (and i work, too). But making out no longer excites me. I don't dream of other men. (Or women at all so on't go there). His kisses are wonderful, but don't drive me to want sex. I don't have any fantasies...i am quite repulsed by them.
My husband has been reading some kind of sex book for men, MMSA or omethingbto that tune, and i feel like a frickin science project. I want nithing to do with passing the books experiments or type-A man. But my husband will not listen. Sure, type-A has sexybpoints but honestly, I chose HIM because he WASN't type A.
But he won't listen. He constantly says we are not best friends and that I am his wife which is a higher category. But all I feel out of that title is duty. My duty is to have sex when hevwants it or I can hit the road. Um, I am college educated and the road is a LOT more appealing than owing a man sex because of marriage.
I never thought he would fall into cave man role and want to drag me around by the hair. This type of man DISGUSTS me and it is who he has become after his mid-life crisis.
I am sooo tired of the pressure. I can't force sexual interest. I appear to have moved on past the need but feel so punished now. He is more open and passionate and kissy and touchy than ever before. Great...maybe 15 years ago.
I am not sure what to do. I take it when I see he really is annoyed, but naked is not a fire moment anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love him like crazy still. But sex has never been a top need. It was always a chemical release and i used to be wild crazy nympho 15-20 yrs ago. The chemicals just are not there anymore.
I have reached the point of just wanting to travel, and see the world and work on the yard and fix the house. I don't even have the strong bonding chemistry with our kids that I used to feel. Kind of like i got cushy with the kids being teens and detaching and well, doing what i could not or so many years.
My poor husband tries so hard. He cooks, leans, works, makes a nice paycheck, (and i work, too). But making out no longer excites me. I don't dream of other men. (Or women at all so on't go there). His kisses are wonderful, but don't drive me to want sex. I don't have any fantasies...i am quite repulsed by them.
My husband has been reading some kind of sex book for men, MMSA or omethingbto that tune, and i feel like a frickin science project. I want nithing to do with passing the books experiments or type-A man. But my husband will not listen. Sure, type-A has sexybpoints but honestly, I chose HIM because he WASN't type A.
But he won't listen. He constantly says we are not best friends and that I am his wife which is a higher category. But all I feel out of that title is duty. My duty is to have sex when hevwants it or I can hit the road. Um, I am college educated and the road is a LOT more appealing than owing a man sex because of marriage.
I never thought he would fall into cave man role and want to drag me around by the hair. This type of man DISGUSTS me and it is who he has become after his mid-life crisis.
I am sooo tired of the pressure. I can't force sexual interest. I appear to have moved on past the need but feel so punished now. He is more open and passionate and kissy and touchy than ever before. Great...maybe 15 years ago.
I am not sure what to do. I take it when I see he really is annoyed, but naked is not a fire moment anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love him like crazy still. But sex has never been a top need. It was always a chemical release and i used to be wild crazy nympho 15-20 yrs ago. The chemicals just are not there anymore.
I have reached the point of just wanting to travel, and see the world and work on the yard and fix the house. I don't even have the strong bonding chemistry with our kids that I used to feel. Kind of like i got cushy with the kids being teens and detaching and well, doing what i could not or so many years.
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